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d. ([personal profile] sunshowered) wrote2015-12-31 08:18 pm

ninety-eight ; live a life you will remember

2015 YEAR IN REVIEW

what happened tho?

This is going to be distinctly shorter since I've been using my journal so much lately, but might as well list off the highlights of the year, you know?
» Studied abroad! .... lmfao, is anything really going to beat this, though??? I was in London for 6 weeks of my life and it was the first time that I traveled since I was a baby. It was the first time that I got to step foot on a different continent and then I even traveled to Amsterdam while I was there, which was an amazing experience. I planned my own weekend trip to another country for crying out loud and my passport now looks awesome. I kept an entire written journal of my adventure too, so I'm going to be pretty proud about that one.
» Became an RA! LIKE I ALWAYS WANTED TO!!! I'm a Community Advisor for second years and I love my job something awful. I get to design things, I get to plan programs that will create a more welcoming community, and I get to help students achieve their dreams by connecting them to resources. Just this coming month I'm going to try to get them all started on Study Abroad stuff! I'M SO EXCITED.
» Got more creative! Now that I'm creating bulletin board displays on a regular basis, I finally have an outlet for all this creativity I have stored up and a place to put all of it! I'm super, super happy about it honestly. I'm also starting to draw again and write for myself more, particularly more poetry. It feels so absurdly good.
» Furthered my academic progress! I'm officially going to double-concentrate in American Politics and Global Politics with a minor in... whatever I choose, really! It's wonderful to know that I am able to utilize my time in college to its fullest by studying everything that I'm interested in.
» Paid for my schooling! Essentially this school year I've put myself through college and I'm... really proud of myself. A lot of it is taken care of by scholarships and grants and my RA job taking care of room and board but... god, it feels good. It feels so good.
» Went back to the Philippines! For a solid two weeks I was roaming around the Philippines with family and it was so nice to go back to my roots. I haven't been since I was a baby but it was interesting to see all the places that I use to roam around as a child and to hear about all the history from my relatives. I went to see my grandmother's grave too and... god, I needed that.
» Failed a little bit! See this is... important. I struggled in Economics something awful and it felt bad at the time but now? Now I know that things can still change. My life isn't set in stone, I still have more to learn about myself every single day.

It's been a good year. I can say that with all sincerity now that I look back at all this.

the introspective stuff


I'm going to keep this shorter because I've been using my journal so much more often, really, but.... it's been an interesting year. If I were to have a single goal for next year though, it'd be to remember this: Comparison is the thief of joy.

It's a quote by Teddy Roosevelt and I heard it once and... it's important to me. I'm not an innately envious person, to be honest. I've talked about which of the deadly sins represent me twice in the past couple months honestly and envy doesn't exist on the chart. I am so absurdly confident and comfortable and happy being myself that I don't really envy other people for their traits. Do I think that I can improve in certain parts of my life? Of course I do. But do I think that it's something that I should look to other people for? No, not really.

But I compare rather frequently. Mostly I compare my relationships. I've compared how much my roommates hang out with each other rather than they hang out with me - and I love them to death. The funny thing is that I think that I'm making it up in my head. I think that they love me and they give me space because they know that I need it or that I'm busy and I have been since freshman year. This was a realization the other day and it's making me wonder how many other things I make up when I do these comparisons.

It's an ugly thing that I do. I compare my past relationships - I compare my current amazing boyfriend to my old boyfriends on some of the smallest of actions. He doesn't deserve that because like I said, he's amazing. I compare things in RP - I compare my characters to each other in terms of popularity and I compare my activity to my old standards. It's not necessary.

So I'm going to work on not comparing this year. I'm going to work on just accepting this is what I do or this is what this person does and it's still great. I don't need to be who I used to be, I don't need to be fighting off 50 tags a day in order to still be a good RPer. I set up these awful expectations for myself and then when I compare and find that I fall short somewhere, it bothers my mood.

It'll help me in my relationships with other people too, because people don't deserve to be compared to each other. And maybe it'll help me feel better too because this weird idea of "they don't hang out with me as much as they hang out with them, they must really like them more" is stupid. People don't actually rank their friends? I definitely just made that up somewhere along the line and I just had that epiphany. Damn, I'm late.

This is my new project to seek sincere happiness.

I think it'll go well.

resolutions

TIME TO LOOK AT LAST YEAR'S RESOLUTIONS THOUGH, I'M SO EXCITED.
» laugh more! ✔
» smile more! ✔
» smile whenever I make eye contact with someone! ✔
» get on dean's list!!!! ✔ I DID IT, I DID IT!!
» play more than two characters at a time?! ✔? .... lmao not really but ok. I played Jae-ha for a bit along with Tenka and Natalia?!
» make an OC! ✔ LMFAO I HAVE MADE SO MANY, I just haven't actually RPed one.
» do Thanksgiving Thankful posts! ✔ I made people cry this year, I'm so satisfied.
» do more birthday posts! .... lmfao dammit. AUGH I NEARLY GOT ALL OF THEM.

Not bad though. Let's try this year's!

» laugh more!
» smile more!
» smile whenever I make eye contact with someone!
» get on dean's list AGAIN!!!! this is just going to be on the list until I graduate tbh
» play more than two characters at a time?! let's try this again and see what happens. or if I play in a different game, that'd also be nice!
» make an OC journal! whenever I feel confident enough and manage to find a PB, I'd love to do this. playing an OC sounds like so much fun.
» GET HIRED! as an RA - this is so important and it's going to be my main goal of this coming quarter to be honest.
» get published! in my school's PoliSci academic journal. I'm already working on my paper with an old professor of mine so hopefully it'll be able to go well!
» join a dance crew! I said I would last term but I never went to a single practice because of my schedule - I'd really like that to change this time around! especially since I know exactly which dance crew I'd join, so.
» try yoga or zumba! I'd like to get healthier and these sound like they'd be good for my flexibility and stamina. SO HERE'S HOPING, there are classes at the on-campus rec center so I'll give it a shot!
» get more creative! keep drawing, keep making icons, keep writing on the side - I just want to see if I can do it. hopefully I'll be comfortable enough to open icon commissions soon.

THEY'RE A LITTLE LESS AIR-HEADED THIS YEAR?! I'm going to call that a victory on my part.


2015 NOTES TO PEOPLE

Listen, if I did this last year and then I didn't do them this year, wouldn't that be kind of super embarrassing? This year I've been blessed with even greater friendships and more people that are absolutely fantastic beyond measure. So here's a couple of notes that I felt like writing in order to commemorate the awesome friendships that I've made over this past year.

EVERYONE: Let's start off with the fact that there are too many amazing people that I know and not enough hours in a day - so please, please let me know if you want an individual note because I will absolutely write one for you. But regardless of whether or not you received an individual note or not, I just want to say thank you. Oh my god, thank you for being here with me over one of the most ridiculous years of my life. I did so much this year and the thing is, it really felt so, so much sweeter to have all of you cheering me on and supporting me every step of the way. Absolutely everyone that I know is just... you guys are literally made of magic. You are composed of kindness. You possess an unimaginably beautiful soul. You are capable of breathtaking feats of strength and skill. You kicked ass in 2015 and here you are, at the end. Or perhaps some of you are already at the beginning of 2016 in which case damn, look at you, just ahead of the game, huh? I hope that when you reflect upon your past year, you'll see all the smiling faces who believe in you and you'll feel the warmth of every single person on this planet who loves you - which includes me. Please never forget what you're capable of - which is literally anything and everything. You have the power to change this world if you want. You have the power to change your life if you want. You have an unwavering power in you and I hope that you realize this so that you can seize control of your life and make it into exactly everything you dream it to be. Thank you for all the love that you impart on the world. I hope that you are happy in 2016. I hope that you are successful in 2016. I hope that you are joyful without compare in 2016. Have a happy new year.

Adi: NO SPOILERS FOR THE FUTURE PLEASE, KTHNX -- no, I'm laughing. Adi, the day that I'll have known you for a year is coming up and I can't even begin to say how happy I am to be able to say that. You are hilarious, uplifting, and friendly to absolutely every single person that you meet and I think knowing you is a great privilege. It was fun being hiatus buddies over the summer with you and getting to see all the crazy stuff that you were up to - but the beautiful thing is that even then, you were so on top of your RP stuff?? HOW?? I DON'T UNDERSTAND, YOU'RE MAGIC. But I can say with certainty that you help make everyone feel so welcomed and part of the community in Cerealia and the way that you make friendships almost instantaneously doesn't surprise me at all. You're a gift and a beautiful person and I am wishing you the best of 2016 even though yours has already started. Please have fun and let your drug lord beard only get more nefarious in the coming months because it makes my life so much better to know that it exists?? or in general that you exist, because i adore you.

Aki: okay let me first say that I typically don't ask for Christmas cards so I missed out on the Aki Extravaganza but it brought me so much joy to see them popping up all over my timeline. Aki, you make people smile and you do it as easy as breathing. you put so much thought and love into every single thing you do, whether it's a card or a tag, and it shows. you manage to make everyone feel so loved and I sincerely appreciate that about you and your ability to make people laugh or smile just like that. I honestly don't know what I'd be doing if I didn't know you and I question what I was investing my time and effort into in the days before I knew you. this is the second time I get to dote intense affection on you and I'm soooo excited about it you have no ideaaaaaa, because that means that this is another year where I get the joy and pleasure of having you in my life and in my inbox. Your tags are literally magic and make me want to tag late into the night even if I know I'll never really win the tag war, and your presence as a person on my timeline brings so much joy into my life. may your 2016 be absolutely kickass and bring you only the best things ever.

Aly: TALES PROTAG QUEEN HERSELF..... i'm laughing Aly, how did you end up with accounts for 5 tales protags, that's the number of Tales accounts that I had total back in the height of my time in Tales hell years ago, god. but here's the thing ok. I love that you love Tales protags so much because they bring as much joy to the world as you do. We might not know each other that well (which we should also totally remedy in the coming year, WE CAN HAVE LONG FIST FIGHTS TALKS AT SUNSET OR SOMETHING) but I see the way that you treat your friends and it always brings a smile to my face. You build these connections with people - and I've talked about the way that you manage to bring people into your fandoms before and I still think it's absolute magic - but you make people feel like they're heard and listened to and the friendships that come of it make me so happy. You're a joy to know and I love that you can make people so happy. I hope 2016 brings you just as much happiness, I really do.

Ame: Darling, you have worked so hard and you have come so far. I'm so proud of you that I can't even begin to say. You might not know this but I read your journal entries, I read every single one. All I want to say is this - I hope 2016 makes you happy. I hope 2016 brings you things that make you smile so hard that your cheeks hurt and I hope that you will only feel more loved. I hope you do things selfishly and I hope that you do them for you because I see the way that you bend over backwards to make things work - your school, your work, your family, your relationship - and I want you to do something for you. I want you to work hard for you and I want you to treat yourself. You are an amazing human being and you have so much to offer the world, but sometimes I worry with how much pressure you put on yourself. You're beautiful. You're smart. You're hard-working. Please realize these things so that the stress doesn't seem so much because I've seen 2015 put you through the wringer and here's the best part: you came out stronger, smarter, and better for all of it. I love you sincerely and I want you to be happy above all else. Please, please be happy.

Amy: WELL. WE'RE FINALLY IN A GAME TOGETHER, I'm laughing so hard..... Amy, I'm so happy to be in a game with you finally. I've talked about this before because I love singing your praises, but you have a talent for being able to connect people and make people feel like they're welcome in your life. Seeing you around on plurk makes me laugh because any plurk that you're in will automatically become so full of life, and you make people feel like they're seen and heard and appreciated - which is just so unbelievably important. Thank you for being supportive and sweet to me for the past year, ready to talk about anything whether it's boy stuff or RP or literally anything under the sun. You've been absolutely amazing. I hope 2016 brings you happiness and warmth because that's what you bring to other people. I realize that you're already in the future by the time I'm writing this bUT WHATEVER. Have fun and just keep being your friendly, fantastic, and bubbly self all throughout the new year. If you do that, then well, of course things will go your way.

Auste: y'know, a TV channel over here broadcasted the new year's celebration in Manila and I was just laughing. next year, when I visit again, we're definitely going to hang out, okay? oh Auste, I hope that you're having a wonderful time during the holidays and that your evenings are full of family and laughter and good food and good company. I just want to say once again, thank you for all of the sweetness that you've shown me over the past year and I really hope that we'll be able to talk even more in 2016! I just remember when I would be reading your lengthy entries about when you started dating your boyfriend and I just cupped my cheeks because you are so cute and I'm wishing you guys all the happiness. We're finally getting more CR in Cerealia too and Tenka and Edgeworth are already a gift to be honest. I'm excited to see what 2016 will bring you and I sincerely hope that it's all incredibly good things. happy new year!!

Beech: I'll never stop saying it - you're an amazing person. Beech, you work so hard and I'm so glad to see all of your efforts getting rewarded. You've done so much this year and worked so hard on so many things - you've started drawing again and I'm just as impressed with that as when I heard that you were working on your own VN last year. Your art is beautiful and you're improving with every day and I don't always speak up in your plurks but I want you to know that just having you on my timeline manages to bring me joy. Playing with you in Cereal is also unbelievably fun and all your tags just make me clutch at my chest because our CR is so important to my soul. I'm starting to wonder if there's really anything that you're not good at?? I'm so glad that we've remained friends throughout the year and I hope that we'll continue to stay close in 2016! May it bring you all the joy and happiness that you deserve, and I'm so excited to see how your talents will progress even further with time. Keep being fantastic Beech and I hope you keep pursuing your hobbies with everything you've got. You're an inspiration.

Cal: YOU'RE FIVE STARS!!!

Coco: MY STUDY ABROAD BUDDY. Alright love, I'm going to start off with this first: please remember these words. You have had an amazing year, okay. You are part of the unbelievably small percentage of students who have ever gotten the chance to study abroad. You were voted to be President of your club, because people believe in you and your abilities. And you never, ever give yourself enough credit or time to rest. I hope that you know that I'm here for you and I read everything that you send to me - because I care about you. I care about you and I hope that you'll be able to seek out all the help and assistance that you need in 2016 and I hope that you will be able to fight against everything that it sends your way. I hope that it sends you more moments of sweetness because goodness knows that you need a break. But please, please let yourself relax and let yourself be weak and let yourself feel everything that you need to and reach out to people who can help you. I adore you sincerely and I always have - and I hope that you will be able to have a wonderful time in 2016. There is still so much worth living for.

Daisy: I know that you've been through a lot in recent months, and I just want to say that you and your family are still regularly in my thoughts. I'm so glad that things are going better now and I hope that they will only steadily improve with the new year coming. Daisy, you're always so upbeat and sweet to every single person that you talk to, and I think that's amazing. You're excited to plot about RP, you're so open about what's on your mind, and you just exude kindness with every word and every plurk. For that reason, I want to believe that your 2016 will be better so that the world can even begin to repay the debt of kindness that it owes you for bringing so much happiness and sweetness into the world. You make other people so happy and I want to just remind you that it's appreciated. You are so, so appreciated and I can't say thank you enough for the friendship that you've extended to me over the past year. Thank you for your encouragement and your presence and I hope that we can only become better friends in the new year. I'm always here for you and I always will be. Have a lovely 2016, darling. ♥

Eon: Kouhai, you're growing up and I'm gonna cry. I am so proud of you. You've crunched the numbers yourself, you know that your accomplishments are amazing. You've had your interviews in the UK now and my heart swells with pride. You've grown so much over the past year and I'm so proud of you - I can't say it enough. You're so smart and you've gotten so mature and you've gotten better at managing what's on your work load too. Figuring out priorities is hard but you've managed it so well, and I think that's quite the commendable feat. Being able to watch you grow up and accomplish so many great achievements manages to make my heart swell because I just know that there's so much that you can offer the world with your talents and skills. I hope 2016 brings you more amazing results of your hard work and maybe even a little bit of downtime so you can relax a bit. More than a great student, you're an amazing person who thinks of others regularly and I hope that you never forget the importance of that kindness. I adore you sincerely and will never, ever stop being amazed of all the things that you can accomplish.

Eski: You said it yourself, Eski! You have had one hell of a year. But I just want to say that it's an inspiration to me how you can manage everything with your ridiculous schedule, all the stuff that life throws at you, and you still manage to be there as a reassuring and encouraging presence for your friends. You and I both care a lot about education and we go about it in very different ways, but I can tell your passion for it from every plurk that you make and how much you care about all the students that have been under your care. You're changing the world a little bit every single day. And online, you're such a welcoming presence as you make it so obvious how much you care about the CR that you have with people -- I'll still treasure our CR plenty because it made me so happy. You're an amazing friend as you reach out to people and do everything that you can to help them and make them laugh and smile. Really, you're just an amazing full package of a person and I will constantly consider myself lucky to know you. Thank you for everything and I hope 2016 is a blessedly relaxing year compared to this one!

Exxie: Exxie, I've just gotten to know you in the past year and I already adore you so much it's ridiculous. First let me thank you for the amazing CR that we've had in Cerealia and that chances that I've gotten to play with you - you're a delight. But more than that, you're a good friend and someone that I love to know online. You're so kind to all your friends and you do everything that you can to maintain your positivity, and I commend your strength on so many levels. You've gone through a lot of change lately if my memory serves correctly and I applaud you for all of it even though my heart breaks whenever I think about how much your dogs must miss you aahhhh, your dogs are so cute I'm getting distracted asdf;ljk. anyway I hope that 2016 not only reunites you with your babies but also brings you a lot of stability and good luck!! You're a joy to know and you only deserve the best things in life and I hope that you'll never let yourself forget that. Thank you for everything and I'm so happy to call you my friend.

Fidgey: WHAT DID I DO WITH MY TIME WHEN I DIDN'T KNOW YOU!! there was so much less gay in my life.... what is this utter nonsense........ I still maintain that you should come to AX when you can because I'd absolutely love to see your gloriousness in person??? now I'm just gushing randomly with absolutely no aim but i dON'T KNOW HOW ELSE TO EXPLAIN HOW MUCH I LOVE YOU. Fidgey, you're hilarious I find myself cracking up at every other tag just as much as I find myself sniffling over them because you're also a beautiful writer. You're so talented with cosplay and I don't say it enough but you're gorgeous, alright. You do what you can to get involved with your games and I think that's amazing because you get to add to the dynamic and community of each game and you do it as easy as breathing. I don't know if you realize how skilled you are at making people feel loved and welcomed because it seems like it comes so naturally to you. We became such fast friends this year and I'm looking forward to knowing you well into 2016 and beyond. You bring a lot of light and laughter to my life and I can't even begin to thank you enough for it. Bless your heart and soul tbh.

Gin: You told me once that one thing that you really wanted to succeed in was to be a good friend to someone - and honestly Gin, you're better than that. You're an amazing friend and such a good person on top of it. Thank you for reaching out to me even when my life gets hectic and I drop off the face of the internet for a little while, I'm glad that you enjoy my snapchat stories and don't feel hesitant to drop me a line about them because it makes me glad to know that I was able to bring a smile to your face at the very least. We haven't talked much lately and I think that's a shame and I hope that we can get back into the rhythm of talking every morning again soon, because I'm not going to lie - those were some pretty great times to me. Being able to talk to you everyday felt like a lovely part of my routine and I'm wishing you the best in all your endeavors regardless. I hope 2016 brings you more reassurance and peace of mind and stability - but also more times with laughter and friends. Thanks for all the time we've had so far and I look forward to more!

Gore: I don't think words exist for how much I appreciate you as a person. Gore, you're everywhere. You're in every person's plurk, you're tagging in every person's post, and your presence is so infectious that you have your own plurk emote for when you just make people go Gore Why. I don't think I know where to even start with how utterly important you are to, well.... me. I thrive off positive energy and the beautiful thing is that I know where you are, positive energy will be there too. Thank you for being a part of Cereal in such a way that you make every single person feel acknowledged, heard, and appreciated. That's an amazing skill, you know? and I don't even know if you do it on purpose or if it's really just that natural for you. And I know that personally, whenever I'm having a rough day, you'll be there with your emote of a box full of kittens to make me smile again and just having that level of reassurance that there's goodness in the world makes me so unbelievably happy. Thank you for your everything - because I don't know if I can really articulate every little action that you do in order to make the people around you smile. I hope 2016 brings you just as much happiness and joy as you bring me, even though that's a pretty tall order to fill. But if anyone deserves all the kindness that the world has to offer, it's you.

Icki: ICKI, YOU'VE HAD A RIDICULOUS YEAR TOO, WOW. Okay no but first, I'm so glad that you feel so accomplished because I've been admiring you and your work all year. I get that the transition out of college and into the """"real world"""" is tough but you're managing it with such grace? I know that you don't think that it's grace because you're so humble but hONESTLY I THINK YOU'RE KILLING THE GAME. You got into that ridiculously awesome med program and then you'll be going to New York soon? That's awesome. But considering the fact that you've worked so hard, I think it really is just what you're due. I really admire your ability to do your best to stay positive even when life gets hard, and you really do have this amazing knack for reaching out to people and I think that's one of the things that I sincerely admire you. It doesn't surprise me that you're so accustomed to making people laugh because you approach life with such joy, it's no wonder that you inspire smiles and laughter wherever you go. Thank you for making me laugh throughout all of 2015 and I look forward to more in 2016 with you.

Jae: augh so we're finally threading for the first time in forever and the thing is that it's just as easy as it was.... what, seven years ago? Jae, I've known you for so much of my life and I've talked about this before but.... it's crazy. It's mind-boggling how long I've known you and what I love more than anything else is that I love you just as much today as I did three years ago or six years ago or however many years ago. You have always been the kindest, sweetest, and most genuine person that I get to talk to - like, pretty much without fail. Thank you for bringing me smiles and laughter every single time that we talk because you are just so, so easy to talk to. You're a fantastic friend and you have been for.... ever. Pretty much. Ever. I'm immeasurably fortunate to have you in my life and I can't wait to get to slam into 2016 with you. And then 2017. And then 2018. Because like - honestly, you're not going to get rid of me anytime soon. I adore you sincerely and any time that I get to talk to you, it's a blessing.

Jan: You're the best. You're sincerely the best. Jan, you.... have so much love in your heart and I find you amazing and inspiring. You put your whole into everything and I honestly wish that I could even begin to articulate how much you mean to me. I've known you for years and I am so grateful for every single one. Our friendship is one where we don't need to talk everyday and we don't need to always have something to chat about and we don't need to be in a game with each other (that said, I'm so excited for you to come back to Cereal, you have no idea) but whatever interactions we do have are meaningful and they make my heart so very, very happy. Thank you for just... being you. I know that you read all my journal entries and you offer your words of encouragement whenever you can and you remind me that I can do things. There are so many times this year where I thought that I was alone for a bit, that no one really cared about what I was saying, and then you would come in and reassure me otherwise. I don't think you know how important you are. But you are sweetness incarnate. You are kindness incarnate. You have a beautiful soul and I am so, so fortunate to call you my friend not only now but hopefully for years to come. I hope 2016 brings you laughter and smiles and more connectedness because that's what you deserve. You work hard and you should be rewarded for it. You're one of my sincerely close friends and I hope that you know that I love you. I love you and so many other people do and you don't hear it enough so I'll keep saying it for as long as I can. I love you, I love you, I love you.

Jayes: How are you honestly one of the sweetest people that I've ever had the pleasure of meeting??? You give so much and hardly ever ask for anything in return and I think that's honestly amazing. I don't know how you do it. I'm so glad that I've gotten to know you over the past year and every time that you show up in one of my plurks just to ask me how my day is going and tell me about yours, I smile. I smile because I know that you're making a difference out in the world and if you're having a good day, then that means someone good in the world is being rewarded for all their good deeds. Thank you for being my friend over the course of 2015, Jayes, and I hope that 2016 brings you plenty of good fortune. You're so sweet to everyone and I really appreciate the fact that you've been in my life.

Jelle: I met you, I'm still trying to wrap my head around this - JELLE, WE MET. WE HUNG OUT. IN AMSTERDAM!! and I'm just here like "Is this the real life or is this just fantasy...." like. I don't even know if I knew you all that well this time last year but I'm so, so glad that I've gotten to know you better? You are honestly such a sweetheart and you're so kind to everyone, I hope that you know that you bring a lot of joy to the people around you. I can't count how many times I've smiled or laughed because of you - because you're also unspeakably hilarious, Shinpachi's CR Chart is still one of my favorite things in existence - but I'll tell you that it's just fact that when you messaged me on Christmas, I clutched my chest in happiness because just.... just even hearing from you again made my heart melt. Your presence is sincerely missed. I miss just getting a chance to talk to you, but I know that you have a lot on your plate RL. On that note, I know that you can tackle all of it. Easy. You are one of the strongest people that I know and I know that you can overcome literally anything that this world is throwing your way. Your resilience is a thing of beauty and it's just so worthy of admiration - and I hope that soon the day will come that you can relax, because you deserve it. I just want you to know that I'm always here for you, always, and I adore you more than words can even begin to say. May 2016 be kind and rewarding to you, my love.

Jes: MY POLISCI BUDDY. Augh Jes, you've had such a crazy year too?! I can't believe that I just missed you when you left Edinburgh and I just arrived in London. That said, congratulations on graduating!! You did it. I hope that now you take some well-deserved rest away from academia and homework -- what is a world without homework, I'm still trying to figure it out. I'm really excited to see what 2016 has in store for you, to be honest, because I'm so, so excited to see what you're going to bring to the world. I know that you've got some high dreams and I refuse to believe that you'll do anything but complete all of them. You're destined for success and I'm just clutching my face over it because I get to watch it all happen as you climb further and further toward your goals. You're brilliant and you're kind and you're honest and all of those qualities are what make you such a great person to talk to on top of being someone fun to RP with. I'm so glad that I've gotten to know you and 2016 is nearly here!!

Kalyn: You're brilliant, you know? I'm constantly amazed by how much patience and kindness exudes from your plurks about your job, even when you're tired and fed up. Working with children is something that is unbearably important but also it's hard as hell. So I read your plurks and I'm amazed with your ability to handle everything with such grace. That said, I am so, so, so excited for your return to working for Disney because I know how happy it made you and I sincerely hope that you get to be as happy as deserve this coming year. You're an amazing friend and you work unbelievably hard and I hope that happiness and joy will grace your 2016 without end. Thank you for being around for me this past year and being so much fun to play with in RP and just as much fun to talk to OOCly. You're a star.

Kassie: LMFAO SOULMATE, god it's been a while since we talked but it would've felt so weird if I made this post without talking about you at least a little bit. I miss you, I sincerely do, but I know that you're off and busy with new and fantastic things. Congratulations on getting to cosplay Sorey with Bamco (you're amazing at what you do and I know how much you love Sorey - you absolutely deserved that opportunity) and congratulations on your new relationship. I'm so glad that you have things in your life that are making you happy because you definitely deserve it. Hopefully we'll be able to talk and chat again soon because I do miss you, but whenever it's convenient for you would still be fine. May your 2016 start off with a fantastic bang and continue to be awesome all throughout the year.

Kaye: I'm so glad that we started talking more this year....? I'm honestly laughing because it feels like we've chatted more in the past couple months than we did when we actually shared a game. That said, you're such a fun person to talk to that I'm not surprised. Thanks for talking to me about pretty much anything under the sun - whether it's video games or boys or study abroad - because it really reminds me that you can make real connections with people over the internet and you know, it doesn't have to be about RP all the time. I'm so glad that we get along and I'm so glad that I've met you, really. You're smart and you're inspiring and you're driven and I'm sure that you'll be able to accomplish all the goals that you've set for yourself. I hope that you have a fantastic time when you study abroad and you absolutely have to keep me updated - and also keep me updated on your everything because you're a fantastic person that I just love talking to.

Kia: You are the definition of strength and perseverance. I'm trying to figure out a way to write this, I really am, but I don't know what else to say. You light up my world like nobody else with the the brightness of every single star int he night sky and I consider you a role model of sorts, I really do. You have the grace and the patience of a saint and I have no idea how you manage it. You have the kindness of a mother and a sister and a friend and also a really friendly dog. You are unimaginably smart and intelligent and you are so sharp. You've been with me for years now and I can remember when I was having a rough day and goodness, you would always be there to console me. You're beautifully honest about your feelings at all times and I just.... I admire you so much, Kia. I know that 2016 is going to bring great things for you and I can't wait to see what they are. You've worked so hard and your karma is gonna cash in real soon, I can feel it in my bones. For all the times that you've blessed another person with being your friend, I just want to say thank you. Just having you in my life manages to make my entire experience in this life better and I just hope you know how much I sincerely appreciate you. Whether it's in RP or whether we're just talking about life and smoothies (you know, the important things), I look forward to spending the upcoming years with you, I really do.

Kosy: AUGH, BLESSED KOSY. Why are you so amazing.... like, okay let's start with one thing - I love your art. I love the fact that you share your art with everyone without hesitation. I love that you literally drew a map of Cerealia because you had a character that could do so ICly and it's also gorgeous. I love that you're so fun to talk to. I love that we can talk about absolutely anything and everything and then about RP and you are always so skilled in making it clear that each and every person has your attention. I love that I've known you for years and you've been amazing for years and any changes that have happened are only positive. You're still as loving and easy-going and chill to talk to as the day that we first met when I approached you in Route, do you remember that, oh my god. I consider myself so lucky that you're still in my life and I hope that your day is absolutely blessed, do you hear me. I hope that your year is blessed really. I know that I'm blessed just from having this awesome opportunity to know you.

Levy: you.... honestly keep me so stable, Levy, I don't even know how to explain it. What I will know is that without fail, you will come to my plurks just to chat with me and that always brings a smile to my face. It's a type of sweetness that isn't practiced all that much anymore if you ask me, and I love that I get to see how willing you are to just pop into people's plurks and talk to them about anything. I love to hear about your day and I love that we've managed to build a friendship over the mundane just as much as we've managed to build one over RP. Writing with you is wonderful too, because you always manage to bring such life into your characters that just manages to wrench my heart and I hope you're happy about that. Getting to be your friend over the past year has been a joy and I can't imagine what my days would be like where I didn't get to talk to you about anything under the sun. I hope you have a wonderful 2016, I really do, and I can't wait to see what it has in store for you.

Nikki: you always do so much, you know?? LIKE. LMFAO I'M LAUGHING, NIKKI YOU DO SO MUCH.... and you always give it your absolute best shot, no holding back, and I applaud you for that. I'm glad that we were chatting more when I was in the Philippines and hopefully we'll get back to talking more now that my school life isn't eating away at me so much! You're honestly so much fun to talk to and so friendly to absolutely everyone. It shows in the way that you play your characters in Cerealia and always have them get involved with big things or even start these big things and you really contribute so much to the game. I just wanted to thank you for that and say that I'm really, really glad that I've gotten to know you more over the past year. It's been an absolute blast. I hope that 2016 will treat you absurdly well because you deserve it, and when I do go to visit the Philippines again, we should definitely hang out. HAVE A HAPPY NEW YEAR!!

Par: throughout this year, you've been nothing but encouraging and I want to say thank you. I want to sincerely say thank you for everything that you've done for me. Whether I'm talking about school or RL or anything really, you have some fantastic wisdom to impart and I appreciate it. Normally I don't respond all that well to advice since I'm stubborn as hell but you always manage to come from such a sincere place of care that I don't even question it. You approach everyone with that kind of warmth and I think that's what makes you so wonderful to talk to. I love the fact that I've gotten to be your friend over the past year, Par, even if we don't talk super frequently. You're a joy to know and I hope that your life has been going well because that's definitely what you deserve. I hope 2016 treats you wonderfully well because it should and I can't wait to know you for years to come.

Pip: I'm laughing so hard - I honestly don't know you that well, I'm going to be honest. But I really do want to say it now because I haven't gotten the chance to say it before. You have an energy for life that is infectious and fantastic. You say that I'm sweet for being so willing to make you icons - still waiting on that PP by the way - but I think that it's honestly more of my way to just thank you for being so.... well, fun. You throw yourself into everything 100% and I love seeing that kind of attitude, I do. I hope that 2016 brings you more reasons to smile and hopefully more time for us to talk! I'd really love to get to know you better.

Rie: alright but if we don't meet up for AX, I'm going to be so salty. Rie, I'll say first that I think that you're an amazing writer. I'd love to start a PSL with you one of these days because our CR tends to be short-lived in games but I hate missing out on the chance of writing with you because it's so much fun. Next, I'll say that I admire your strength. You are so strong and I applaud you for getting through 2015 because it's certainly been a hell of a year. But when I think of you, I think of all your adorable instagram posts where you just share the happy snippets of your life and it brings a smile to my face. You make me smile without even trying. We don't talk all that much anymore but I hope that'll change soon enough because I'd love to be more present for you. I think that you're fantastic, I really do. I hope that 2016 will bring you more light and happiness because you deserve them after all the hard work that you've put into... well, everything.

Rose: ROSE, WE HAVEN'T TALKED IN FOREVER, but I just want you to know that I really, really hope that you're doing well. I hope that things are going smashingly in your life and I just want to say that I miss you. Hopefully we'll get a chance to talk again soon because just.... talking to you about Hakus and DnW were both really fun. I see all your reblogs on my dash on tumblr though and that just still manages to bring a smile to my face. It seems like so long ago but having a chance to thread with Tenka and Sano in Cerealia was absolutely fantastic and I just wanted to say that I'll never forget it. Thank you for everything. I hope 2016 brings you even more good fortune and luck and hopefully we'll be able to chat again soon.

Sib: First - I'm gonna thank you again for that Christmas card because I'm still not over how absurdly cute it is. Second - I'm gonna tell you that I sincerely can't handle how talented you are because honestly Sib, every single doodle and drawing that you share brings a smile to my face, even if I don't know the fandom. You have so much skill as an artist and I just love it when you share what goes on in your head with us. And then now I'm just going to tell you that I appreciate you so much as a friend and as a person. I love talking to you, whether it's about ships or about otomes or about.... anything, I love talking to you about literally anything because you're so easy to talk to. I applaud you for everything that you've accomplished in 2015 because you've been up to so much and I am so impressed okay, SIB VS. THE REAL WORLD AND I'M CONVINCED THAT SIB IS WINNING. and I really can't wait to see what 2016 will bring you. I hope that it brings you smiles and laughter and more cute monster boys and whatever else makes you happy because you deserve it. You work so hard but you always have time to talk to your plurk list about anything and everything and it warms my heart. You're a wonderful friend, Sib, and I am so, so sincerely glad to know you.

Squee: Let's start off with the fact that you loving anthropology as much as you do makes me smile. I don't comment in your plurks all that much because I don't typically have a lot to add, but I hope that you know that every single one where you talk about New York and gentrification and your studies and what you get up to in college fascinate me. It's obvious that you have a lot of passion for your field and this probably doesn't mean as much coming from me, but I hope you know that I'm really, really excited for the work that you'll do as an anthropologist and if you ever wanna share, I'd totally read it. More than that, I'm really glad that I've known you for all these years and over the past couple months I'm actually getting to know you better. Like. Finally. You're so much fun to RP with and also talk to - your commentary is hilarious and you're honestly just such an awesome individual. Props to you for overcoming all that you have - I've at least known you for long enough to know that damn, it's a lot - and you really have shown your strength. I hope 2016 brings more fantastic anthropology and more adventures to you!

Timpeni: LMFAO MY DARLING DAUGHTER, GOD. what kind of mother am I, I don't even know what you've been up to lately, god. that said, I hope that you never forget that I think that you're beautiful beyond compare and I think that you're unbearably funny. You have this magnetic personality that has people just drawn to you and god, does it apparently lead to some interesting stories for you. Keep dropkicking life like I know that you have been because I honestly can't.... imagine you struggling with it at all. BUT I HOPE THAT YOU DO KNOW that as your mother I am constantly here to support you, okay. plurk me, message me, call me, beep me, if you wanna reach me, etc etc. may 2016 kick a bunch of ass - though I guess that you would know that better than me since you're already there - and let me know if you ever need a little bit of motherly advice ok I am still here.

Ty: TY, I REALLY DON'T KNOW YOU THAT WELL and it's a shame that we missed each other this holiday season tbh. Next time I'm around SoCal we should definitely be hanging out, wow. But I just want to say that I really appreciate knowing you. You're a fantastic person who has shown me nothing but kindness and friendliness, even if it's the most mundane of plurks. You have this warmth about you that you share with everyone and you're excited about.... well, everything and I think that's fantastic. I love your willingness to plot in RP and how it brings you closer to all the people that you know on plurk because it manages to bring a smile to my face whenever I see it. I hope that 2016 is kind to you because you deserve it and I hope that maybe we'll be able to hit up Disneyland together during! Hopefully we'll only get to know each other better int he new year but for now I hope that you know that I sincerely appreciate how sweet you are.

Yaywon: what the hell Yaywon, why are you always just.... so wonderful? here's the thing - I don't have a lot of people that I can talk to and find a guarantee that I will be cracking up about 2 minutes later, but I absolutely have that with you. You... you're so sweet? You're so genuine and oh my god you're so funny that I distinctly remember a couple occasions immediately where I was in the library and had to cover my mouth to try to keep my laughter in. It was SO EMBARRASING LMFAOSDFJK but like - I love it. I love that I have this relationship with you where it's just so full of laughter and good emotions. You bring so much happiness into the world and the beautiful thing is that I don't think that you even try to, you just do. You have this relationship with so many people and I know that you're busy with RL but it just means that every time that you do grace plurk with your wonderful presence, it's that much more of a gift. I love seeing people running into your plurks screaming your name because god, it's deserved. You're fantastic and I think I'm just starting to get repetitive now LMFAO. You're so funny and you're so lovely and I hope that 2016 is damn good to you or else I'll fight it, tbh.

Yuul: IT'S LIKE SOME CRUEL IRONY THAT WE KEEP MISSING EACH OTHER, I CAN'T BELIEVE THIS but oh my god lmfao Yuul, I'm just laughing. Regardless, I want to tell you that I really appreciate you as a person. I remember that one day where I was just - having it rough? I'm actually still trying to figure out what happened to me, I can't even remember the cause.... but you sent me this wonderful set of snapchats that were just. So reassuring. And you doodled on a bunch of them and my heart pretty much melted. Like - you have this absurdly big heart and I have no idea what I did to deserve you in my life as a friend. We may keep missing each other and we may not talk all that often, but I sincerely love getting the chance to talk to you when we do. You're hilarious and you're so funny and you're so friendly and you're just.... so unbelievably sweet. I'm so glad that you really exist in this world because I know that you make the world a better place. May 2016 bring you a lot of joy and happiness and more great times back in here in Torrance and your campus alike, and hopefully we'll actually get to meet sometime soon. That'd be A+, but for now I'm already content just knowing that we're friends.

Dearest: you're so nice!!!!

lmfao oh my god no could you imagine i'm cracking up

augh i love you. I always leave you for last because it's always the most embarrassing and at this point it's just fun to psych you out with the first entry and then actually slam something meaningful down later, it's like tradition. (does that freak you out, does it weird you out that we've known each other for long enough that we have traditions LMFAO)

Okay but like. Seriously. Seriously. Dearest, you are my opera ghost girlfriend and I will never stop laughing about it. I'm pretty sure at this point you're just a fixed part of my life and that'll probably never change. Even when there's the ever so rare communication blip (I'm reading it as once every five years, does that sound right to you) we always just come back stronger than ever and I love it. Talking to you every single day is just part of my routine now, kinda like when I roll awake and just message you because... I dunno, it's just what we do. I've sang your praises a thousand times but I might as well do it again - You work harder than literally everyone I know put together. You take all the pressure that's put on you and you come out of literally all of it stronger than ever. You deal with so much and yet at the end of the day you always come out smiling and I think that's one of the greatest parts about you. Thank you for this amazing year of partners and peach pie and idols and like 5 new AUs and I can't wait to know what the next one will bring. Thank you for being you. I don't know what I'd do without you. I love you.




alrighty, I think that's a wrap!! HAVE A HAPPY NEW YEAR, EVERYONE. ♥ ♥

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