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sunshowered) wrote2016-04-04 01:13 pm
sunshowered) wrote2016-04-04 01:13 pm
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I'm a little less put together than last year but I'm trying really hard to keep believing that I'll be just fine, you know?
Because - I will! I'm really, really, really fortunate with all the opportunities I've had and will hopefully continue to have. I just need to keep reminding myself of this fact and maybe keep playing Stevie Wonder and Earth, Wind, and Fire until my mood picks up the rest of the way. It's a little stressful to not have an internship just yet but... I think it'll work out!
Even if it doesn't work out - what's the worst thing that could happen?
I spend another summer in SLO working the RA job while at the same time putting in hours at the Financial Aid Office so I can purely make money since none of my funds would go to rent or utilities? Then I can work on making sure that I can put in my applications for post-undergrad stuff! I'll get all the dates ready for the Assembly Fellowship, for the Disney College Program, and I'll consider talking to the CSDs I know how they got to actually being a CSD. I don't think I'll pursue the Psychology route just yet - that'll be after a gap year if I end up taking one of those instead, traveling and working and doing what I can to support myself.
No internship is not the end of the world. If anything, I'd save more money working as an RA over the summer.
Then if I don't get that - that's just fine too, isn't it? Then I can spend time with my family since who knows how much I'll get to be with them after I graduate? I'll stay home and travel a bit... or something like that!
There's a lot of contingency plans being made here that I failed at securing earlier, which is a bit of a shame! Except I still think that it'll be fine, you know?
I think the best sign that I really do think that everything will be working out okay is the fact that my anxiety hasn't kicked in again yet - which is fortunate! So... yeah, everything will work out just fine, one way or another.
Because - I will! I'm really, really, really fortunate with all the opportunities I've had and will hopefully continue to have. I just need to keep reminding myself of this fact and maybe keep playing Stevie Wonder and Earth, Wind, and Fire until my mood picks up the rest of the way. It's a little stressful to not have an internship just yet but... I think it'll work out!
Even if it doesn't work out - what's the worst thing that could happen?
I spend another summer in SLO working the RA job while at the same time putting in hours at the Financial Aid Office so I can purely make money since none of my funds would go to rent or utilities? Then I can work on making sure that I can put in my applications for post-undergrad stuff! I'll get all the dates ready for the Assembly Fellowship, for the Disney College Program, and I'll consider talking to the CSDs I know how they got to actually being a CSD. I don't think I'll pursue the Psychology route just yet - that'll be after a gap year if I end up taking one of those instead, traveling and working and doing what I can to support myself.
No internship is not the end of the world. If anything, I'd save more money working as an RA over the summer.
Then if I don't get that - that's just fine too, isn't it? Then I can spend time with my family since who knows how much I'll get to be with them after I graduate? I'll stay home and travel a bit... or something like that!
There's a lot of contingency plans being made here that I failed at securing earlier, which is a bit of a shame! Except I still think that it'll be fine, you know?
I think the best sign that I really do think that everything will be working out okay is the fact that my anxiety hasn't kicked in again yet - which is fortunate! So... yeah, everything will work out just fine, one way or another.
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So, hopefully you'll snag a snazzy internship, but if not, maybe you can relax a little!