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sunshowered) wrote2017-12-31 11:41 pm
sunshowered) wrote2017-12-31 11:41 pm
124 ; we made our campfire
+ year in review . . .
Ah yes. 2017. I - mm. Where do I really begin with this?
Well for one, I started off 2017 horribly. So badly! Wow!! The first few weeks of 2017 is when I think I remember there being absolute insane rains in California. Seasonal Affective Disorder was always there in theory and it would hit in small ways but apparently if you take the sun away from me for weeks at a time, I become a lump of a person. My mood dived horribly and I wasn't sure what to do with myself. I knew that I needed to start seeing a counselor? I didn't put as much as effort into my post-grad applications as I could've and—
holy fuck, looking back on it, I was kind of a major disappointment in the beginning of 2017. ah, I'd found footing in RP sure but what does that mean when my RL was... it wasn't falling apart, no, but it wasn't doing very well at all. not by my standards. I didn't get into some programs that I really wanted to get into, I wasn't doing well in my classes, I hung out with my residents less in the beginning of the year, I sincerely felt like I'd lost some irreplaceable friends in 2016 (and... I did - I did, but I'd thought I'd lost them in the way that made me therefore broken for all future relationships. that's the part that wasn't true.) I....
i really wasn't myself, was i? or maybe I was - maybe that sort of living is the type of living that I should've anticipated. maybe at base, that sad sack of a depressed and unsuccessful person is who I really am.
... but I don't want to believe in that.
because after that I graduated. I made new friends. I found an amazing job just months out of college that's set me up for success in all my future endeavors. I -
god this is going to sound so ridiculous but. in 2016, I gathered a bunch of my random friends - some of them had never met - and I made them all sit down in my room to watch episodes one through three of Yuri!!! on Ice on Halloween night. and that was the start, only the very beginning of a group called Ice Gays. and I can't talk about 2017 without talking about my Ice Gays. because we made a Groupchat that i just felt like making and then we made a snapchat group and. I've graduated, you know?? I left my college half a year ago. but it's New Year's Eve and they're still talking. on Halloween some people commented and said "oh fuck we've been ice gays-ing for a year." and the thing is that I don't take credit for the group, not really. it was a whim of mine but I remember when we were all sat down for a dinner before I was going to drive home after graduation and. they would all say "no Ice Gays was all Dana." and now there's a safe space for these people. they still hang out even without me. they talk about it like it's me leaving a legacy. like it's a magical thing that I brought - where I could bring these people together and give them something new to enjoy all together and it's their own community and.
sometimes it's those little things.
sometimes I think about how hard it is to keep going, to find something to keep going for. this year has been an epic shitshow of unbelievable proportions. following the news is goddamn hard. everyday I think there's some going to be new exciting way that one of my identities will be marginalized further by the government that I spent four years of my goddamn life studying because I thought that it could be a force for good
but then I think of those moments - where you can have 15 people cramped in a room yelling over anime, then discussing the importance of LGBTQ representation in media, learning from each other and respectfully calling each other out - those 2 am conversations where someone opens up to you, those phone calls you have that cross 300 miles when you really need someone, those crisp, clear, beautifully raw moments
and i'll think
"i'm glad i got that."
i'm glad that i got to experience those little mundane moments of magic - and i wouldn't have been able to if i had thought to hide things that matter to me. if I lied about liking anime. if I wasn't so excited to share the things that I love with other people. if I wasn't... me, how different would my life be?
i think 2017 was my last year of college where I wasn't afraid to be myself. in every capacity. in terms of RL i - god, I was open, so open. if someone wanted to have a conversation about politics, i would have it. if someone wanted to talk to me about racism, i'd be there for it. if someone crossed me for even a second with a bit of racism or misogyny, i'd set them aflame. if i came back from a counseling appointment and one of my residents would ask me where i was, i would tell them. because mental health conversations are important to have and.
this year i realized that dear god i'm fucked up HAHA. we all are, in little ways, i think. and sometimes those little ways are more in number and people are different. but you know i used to be so scared of talking about my faults. because acknowledging them would somehow make other people fixate on them like "holY FUCK DANA WE THOUGHT YOU WERE PERFECT UNTIL LITERALLY JUST THIS MOMENT!!" kind of logic.... and - maybe some people still are like that. maybe they don't think i'm perfect but they buy into this facade that i have that my flaws are minor and i have the rest of life figured out but -
i think that's the thing.
i think no one has life figured out and we're all just trying to get the little bits of our life under control, one piece at a time. i think those moments of open, raw honesty about imperfections are all the more important. and i think acknowledging that this year has been good for me. having to admit that no, as much as i try to make it seem like it's true, i am imperfect. sometimes it's even in my quest for perfection that my flaws become more prominent. maybe my quest for perfection is in itself a flaw.
i don't need to be perfect.
i just need to be me.
i don't need to be anyone but me.
and when mistakes happen, i need to own them, breathe them in, and learn from them.
and i need to remember most of all that everyone else has struggles that i don't know fucking anything about.
all i'm trying to do is follow the path that makes me happiest.
and that's the same for everyone around me.
(obviously some shit still won't fly LMAO like damn white supremacists can meet me in the pit oohhh honey)
- but i think. laughs. i'll be happier if i remember that.
i'm in a good place in life and - i'm content. i've come a long way from where i was in 2016. there are still imperfections that i want to fix but. being perfect sounds boring, doesn't it? what kind of life is that? we are all still working to improve ourselves every single day. that's the whole point of living.
+ notes . . .
ABI » LMFAO OH ABI can you believe that i didn't know you in the beginning of the year because i can't. i'm so unbelievably glad that recolle managed to bring us together. i just wanted to leave a note for you to say that i consider you to be one of the most open-hearted and sweetest people that i've encountered in rpland. even if our cr has been all over the place and hiatuses have left us a little bit further than usual I didn't want to forget to just tell you that I'm thankful for all the threads that we've gotten to have this year. I didn't even expect Dante and Anya to be where they are now and I can't wait to see what direction they move forward to from here. you're an engaging writer and so willing to open up as many opportunities to other people to rp as humanly possible and i think that's amazing. so i hope 2018 brings you wonderful, beautiful things like the light that you bring to other people and i can't wait to spend more of it with you
AKI » well for one, I'm so glad that I was able to finally meet you in person. things that I'm sad about: I did not get to witness your party tricks in person???? truly our list of memes are too much. but i'm laughing I always wax poetic about how much I adore you when I'm drunk it's different to do it sober. I'm sure that there'll always be more for me to say but in general thank you for being one of my dearest, closest friends. you're the perfect person to talk to whether it's 4 am and it's meme time or ghost time or it's in the middle of the day and I feel the need to scream about some new politics or nonsense fandom thing. you endure so much of my yelling.... so much.... and for that I really don't know what I'd do without you. thank you for falling down mankin memory pits with me, thank you for letting me occasionally pretend that i don't belong in swordhell, thank you for being someone who has enriched my life in ways that I can only sort of barely begin to explain. you mean the world to me and I'm pretty sure you know that by now but I figure it can't hurt to say again.
ARI » ari the amazing beauty guru, the amazing friend, the A+++ cosplayer where do I even begin!!! how can so much talent exist in one human? it's a little ridiculous to me that in the beginning of the year I didn't even know you, we weren't even in the same game, we didn't even know each other existed in this universe and - now I can say with certainty that I'm so glad that I know you. you bring me so much joy every time you come into my plurks even if it's over my trash boy?? ? I can't believe that you really read through all of his canon and come into my screaming plurks. i'm dying. but i'm so glad that recolle has brought us together, has brought me the joy of baren and futaba cr that i didn't even know that i needed until rng put us together on the same plot team. and honestly just talking to you oocly is also wonderful bc you have so many answers for so many of life's beauty mysteries LMFAO your con adventures are also fun to follow along with and i hope that you get to attend many more in the coming year. thank you so much for being my friend and i can't wait to spend even more time with you in the coming year.
ALEX » alex you're phenomenal??? you're amazing. you're just. goD. i shake my head at myself every time because i think you're so truly out of this world. i think it's amazing that you have your dream job - in the sense that you are real living proof to me that holy fuck hard work can pay off and you really can reach those goals that you set for yourself. i'm completely unsurprised of course because you're one of the smartest and sweetest and sharpest people that i know. it's another case where I'm shooketh that we didn't cross paths in rpland before this year but I'm so glad that recolle has brought us together? our CR is fun, unexpected, and constantly evolving and changing and I'm delighted over that every single day. I love tagging with your characters and I love plotting with you and in general I love reading your life updates and how your day is going. tbh in my head you're an almost larger than life figure not unlike Queen C herself and I can't wait to see how you'll continue world domination in 2018. you're a star and I'm so glad that I can call you a friend.
AME » HEY THERE BEAUTIFUL SMART LOVELY PERFECT GIRL. ame i love you? ame i love you ame i love you ame i love you and i will say this a thousand times until you think you've heard it enough and then i'll keep saying it some more. we don't share a game anymore and we don't always talk that much anymore and - both of these things bum me out i hope you know that, but i hope you also know that i wish for your happiness all the time. you've had a hard year and you've been having to make so many changes and trying to make people happy but i hope that in 2018 you really get to make yourself happy. because you work hard. you do everything you can for people. you don't let people forget how much they mean to you. and i hope with every single piece of my heart that you have an easier, more relaxing, more fulfilling in 2018 because you deserve it. you do. and i'll be rooting for you every step of the way and i hope you know that no matter what i'm always here. if you ever need anything at all, i'm here. i consider you a friend for life.
AMY » okay but to be honest one of my favorite memories from this year was when it was spontaneously a little meeting of DWRPers in a random Marriott hotel lobby at AX LMFAO it was honestly the most... absolutely random places to run into you but I'm so glad I did??? you are an absolute delight and I wanted to say thank you for making my 2017 brighter now that I've found someone else who cries about Tenka just as much as I cry about Tenka. hopefully in 2018 we'll actually??? thread together???? ugly laughs. until then I do want to say that I admire your skills as a cosplayer and as an ice skater and I wish you every happiness because you are such an open, warm, and kind person. I hope that you continue to reach greater heights and look forward to entering 2018 with you as a friend!
ARA » did you know that every time i talked about you before i actually added you (again....) on plurk people would just be like "omg yes i love ara" and "ARA IS SO SWEET" and honestly all of these things are super true?? and i just wanted to mention them because holy fuck you're so loved - because you have every reason to be? i have to say that i've absolutely loved our cr in recolle and in general i love love love how you play chiyo oh my god, clutches chest. sometimes i mention your chiyo to other people and they're like "yES ARA'S CHIYO IS SO GOOD" LMFAO. thank you for bringing so much laughter and joy into my 2017 without even meaning to. you are a phenomenal writer and such a sweet person and i'm so glad that i've gotten to talk to you and get to know you more over this year. i hope that we'll continue to thread and develop our cr in 2018 and i'll never stop singing your praises either tbh
BECKS » i really do have to say that i'm really happy that we're in a game together again LMFAO HAHAHA. LIKE IT'S BEEN AGES AND TAGGING WITH YOU IS SO MUCH FUN - yusuke was honestly my favorite from p5 and i'll just get it out of the way to say that you're a fucking phenomenal yusuke. you're so engaging and i'm really happy to have your tags in my inbox again. that said i do have to mention how it cracks me up because i feel like we've been friends outside of rp for longer even if we'd just talk about random things every couple months - and even those friendships mean a lot to me. i've known you for goddamn years at this point and wanted to say thank you for your presence in my life because it's absolutely a more wonderful place with you in it. i'm so glad that you've found your place in recolle and have been having so much fun too, because it's a delight to see you running around and plotting. i hope that 2018 brings you just as much laughter and gagtags as 2017 has, if not more
BELLA » so i literally like. met you within the last month but i appreciate your presence in my life so much so i hope that you don't mind if i leave you a note laughs. for one i think that your drive and passion for writing is amazing and also it's inspiring because it reminds me how badly i need to kick my own ass and get back on the writing horse tbh. you're a fantastic writer and the gifts that you spontaneously leave for people are honestly like small blessings. i'm so glad that i've gotten to thread with you and talk about enstars with you in the past month, but i'm also glad that we got to talk about rl that one time also because knowing what your life is like and how you're trying to find happiness like the rest of us is just as important to me. you're important to me and i hope that you know that in case i'm not obnoxious enough about it. i think you are such a wonderful person and if you would want to open up in the future and share your kindness with others then whoever you meet would be so much richer for it. i think you're the absolute best and i'm sure others would only agree with me?? but regardless thank you for being a part of my life in this last little bit of 2017 and making it all the brighter. i can't wait to spend 2018 with you as someone i can call a dear friend.
BLAIR » considering how much of 2016 i spent looking for you, i think it's hilarious and wonderful and ironic that i found you in 2017 and you became so important to me. laughs i know that our relationship has been kind of a wild rollercoaster ride but i will never stop saying thank you for your patience and your understanding and your willingness to work toward a more well-rounded friendship with me like. blair i think you're wonderful and i hope you know that. i think that you're adorable and excitable and sweet and kind to everyone that you meet and it's one of those things about you that make people so hype to talk to you. you met my energy levels anD THAT ALONE IS A FEAT LET ME TELL YOU but in general thank you for being able to work with me during those times that we weren't on the same wavelength. i love talking to you about the times that the world doesn't make sense or just about enstars or just about anything at all. i love you a whole fuckin lot and i know that this year hasn't always been the best but i hope that 2018 is better because that's what you deserve. you are constantly growing and learning and it delights me to see because you are capable of so, so much and the more that you get in touch with your potential the more excited i get. i hope that you have a wonderful 2018 and i can't wait to spend more of it with you.
BOBA » um let me tell you that one of the main reasons why i was so fuckin excited for recolle is because i was so hype to be in a game with you again LMFAO GOD. AND THEN WE ENDED UP WITH THIS CR THAT IS WAY!! OUT OF CONTROL!!! BOBA!!!!!! WHY IS IT SO BORERLINE CREEPY BUT MOSTLY JUST SWEET LMFAOSDF GOD I'M SO TIRED. ugh no in general though i'm so glad that i've gotten to play with you again and it's so funny when i think about all the different points in time that i met you and realtalk boba you sure are a case where it can be proved that you can find your dream career at any time in life. i love that you're so happy working with dogs now and i still sometimes think about the story of how you detailed your journey and it's still the most practical boba thing i have ever heard LMFAO. you are amazing, you are so funny, you are great to bounce off of in literally any context and i'm so glad that i've known you for as long as i have. that's like. four? five years???? can you believe that i can't lMFAOSDF;J but regardless i hope that 2018 brings you a lot of laughter and i'm literally going to latch onto you and never let go now i just hope you know
BRITT » sometimes i think about how i literally didn't meet you until july and i'm like "i've known britt for less than half a year??? are you fucking sure??" lIKE. THAT'S RIDICULOUS LMFASOD. THAT'S RIDICULOUS AND IT DOESN'T MAKE SENSE AND I KIND OF REFUSE TO BELIEVE IT. because holy fuck britt you now feel like such a staple in my life. like when i go to see pip and ty i of course expect you to be there talking about all the food you want to eat or showing us space idols?? you have brought so much to our lives and i think that also says a lot about you as a person. thank you so much for sharing your dedication and your loves with us because clearly we get swept up in it and learn so much as we go LMFAO. you are a sweetheart without compare, you are so giving, so generous, and i am so, so glad to be able to call you a friend. you're another person who's helped LA feel more and more like home to me ever since I've gotten back from college and I honestly can't remember what life was like before you joined LA Squad or haremlife or whatever we're calling it now. you are so hard-working and sweet and i feel so lucky to know you. thank you for literally everything that you've brought to my life this year and i can't wait to spend more of the new year with you also.
CARD » CARD I STILL CAN'T BELIEVE I MET YOU THIS YEAR???? AND THEN I ALSO MET YOU IRL THIS YEAR???? holy fuck LMFAO. where do i even begin...... well for one i think that you're a really, really, really thoughtful person. i read through your plurks and the extent that you think about your cr and your characters' development and also how you switch that perspective onto your own life and i think that you really have such a rich life and mind. the way that you view the world is one that's incredibly different from my own and i feel like i learn something new every time you share. i'm worried that the words that i haven't aren't enough to convey how much i admire you and how much i appreciate you, but i am trying LMAO. but yeah i - i think that you're wonderful? i think that you're unbelievably smart and hard-working and sometimes i'm also shocked that we more or less grew up maybe 15 minutes away from each other. but regardless i want to sincerely thank you for being a part of my life and playing out a bunch of things with me but also for sharing your perspective and being a great friend. you're so sincere and you throw yourself into everything that you do and i really don't know if i've mentioned before how much i do admire you. i wish you an absolutely amazing 2018 and i can't wait to see what you'll accomplish this coming year too.
COCO » LMFAOSDF;J COCO we've been friends for years and i'm so glad that we finally got to meet at AX this year. you're so wonderful and sweet and i absolutely am even happier that we got to experience the idol concert all together HAHA. YOU'RE SO CUTE... YOU'RE SO CUTE AND SWEET AND EXCITED AND i'm just as excited that we get to play together in a game again?? it's really crazy when i look back at how long we've known each other and it makes me smile to think about how much you've grown - how much we've both changed, and how sincerely i believe that we've both changed for the better. i hope you don't doubt for a second that you're smart, you're wonderful, you're capable, you're adorable, you're a great person who is loved and respected. even when life gets rough i know that you'll make it through. you've gotten so much stronger over the years and i'm so happy for you in all your growth. i hope that 2018 brings you even more greatness and more exciting challenges that you'll conquer. you'll do great and i can't wait to be with you every step of the way.
DEAREST » for fuck's sake i left yours for last too lmfao god i hATE THISSS EVERY TIIIIME
dearest you know i love you i think i've been telling you that for the better part of a decade LMFAOSDF;J. it's sort of crazy looking back on everything we've done together and everything that we hope to do together like - i've said it before but i really do feel like life is easier knowing that i get to do a fair amount of it with you, even if it's just talking to you on disco near daily or giving random life updates as they come. we've grown a lot this year and you especially now command even more programming languages than i knew existed LAUGHS. as always, you bring so much joy and love to literally everyone in your life and make people feel special and wanted. it's always the small things that you do that manage to mean so much. and as always you know that you mean the entire world to me, i am so glad that we figured out a schedule to slam through literally the ancient long list of animes that we've gotten over time and will probably only see continue to grow. i know for a fact that we're going to continue to just blaze through things and tackle the world and life as they both come at us. you put up with me so goddamn much and i always need to thank you for that but. i also need to thank you in general for all the time that we've spent together because you know that i cherish all of it. thank you and i love you and i can't wait for 2018.
FRANCY » sometimes i wonder how you even exist as a person and i don't really come out of it with any more answers but i get to smile while i think about it?? like for one thank you for being someone that i can ping on plurk when One Direction Does a Thing and i can go "frANCYYY HAVE YOU SEEN THIS I'M SCREAMIN". LMFAO. I DON'T REALLY GET TO ENJOY THAT COMBINATION ON PLURK VERY MUCH. but also in general your stories are so good??? i really don't know how your life manages to work out the way it does but you are a phenomenal story teller. this year has been trying and i'm so sorry for all the hardship that you've had to face and anything that might be coming up but - i hope you know that i admire your strength and i find you to be an absolutely amazing person. you're kind to everyone that you meet and you're a joy to play off of not only in rp but even just to talk to. you get so engaged with the people that you ask questions to in plurk and it always makes me smile to see. you have such a genuine interest in people and i think that's amazing. as i've repeated multiple times now - i think that you're amazing. i'm so glad that we got to meet this year and can't wait to see what 2018 will bring us. i wish you and your family the absolute best. may every single success come to you in the coming year because you deserve it.
GIGI » GIGI... WHERE DO I EVEN BEGIN.... LMFAOSF;AJSDF well for one you're one of my favorite tweeters. so much of what you post is goddamn relatable or it otherwise makes me die and want to cover my face in my hands therE MIGHT BE AN IN BETWEEN AND I JUST HAVEN'T FOUND IT LMFAOSF HAHAH. but no i seriously think that you're one of my favorite people that i've gotten to meet this year? even though you fuckin roast me over hiyori sO OFTEN i still think you're a pretty cool person. i love reading every accomplishment that you have under your belt (yOU GET THAT DEGREE AND YOU MOVE OUT TO LA AND YOU HANG OUT WITH ME DAMMIT) and i honestly believe that you're going to change the world for the better. you have such a no nonsense attitude and ability to shut down ignorant people that i legit just want to snap my fingers and go "qUEEEENNNN". sometimes i whisper that at my phone anyway but sshhh. anyway i'm laughing because i really do think that we became fast friends and i'll be sure to let you know as soon as i get my hands on another otome game to play so we can talk about it. i hope that 2018 is smooth sailing for you and i can't wait to see how you're gonna conquer the world next!!
GORE » i still don't know if i've met anyone on the internet that's as kind as you. gore i don't think that i've heard you say a bad word about anyone, you're just full of sweetness and puns and i don't know how that combination came together in a human being buT HERE YOU ARE. i've known you for legitimately actual years now and i don't know if i can even begin to say how fortunate i feel to have a friend that i know will do anything to make me smile or laugh when i need someone. you're a constant presence in my life that i am endlessly grateful for and i sincerely don't know what i'd do without you. you're the kind of quiet but strong presence that inspires people to make emotes about you - to the point that some people don't have the cerealia emote saved anymore but they've still got the "gore why" one HAHA. WHAT KIND OF LEGEND.... but in all sincerity you're the kind of person that's so easy to love that i'm pretty sure i would have to immediately meet someone in the pit if they had any kind of problem with you whatsoever, but that will never fuckin happen because you are one of the greatest people i've ever met. and thank you again for another year with you at my side and i can only hope for even greater, better things for us in the future.
GREER » UGGHHHH THIS ONE IS GOING TO BE SO HARD TO WRIIIIIITE. GREER I LOVE YOU SO MUCH. I'M DYING LMFAOSDF;J. sometimes i think about how you're like "no as soon as i meet someone i treat them like we're best friends" and lET ME TELL YOU, FAM, I FEEL IT. i adore you so much. i want your happiness all the time. i love your dog. i love your talent and your skill and everything that you want to share with us on plurk because your craft is fuckin amazing and you deserve so MUCH GODDAMN PRAISE FOR IT. you are an amazing person. you are a phenomenal human being. you literally stepped up and tried to play therapist for me during some really dark and moody days in my life and i don't know what i'd do if you didn't - for all that i kept talking myself out of the shit the fact that you even cared enough to try to reason with me means the world. because i know that i get frustrating and there are days we don't see eye to eye but like. i wouldn't trade our friendship for literally anything. everything we've built in the course of a year is amazing and i can't even begin to say how much you mean to me. you're a dear friend and someone that i want to talk to everyday even if it's about the smallest things. thank you for being so willing to endure all my chatter LAUGHS. YOU ARE SO PATIENT. you are so patient and sweet and kind and so many, so so so so so so many wonderful things. and i can't wait to see you next year and get to know you even better this year like. yeah. i adore you so much. i love you soooo fuckin much fam and i'll see you in a few weeks blows a kiss
HANA » LMFOS;FJS SOMETIMES I THINK ABOUT HOW WHEN I FIRST MET YOU I WAS LIKE "WHY IS HANA THE SWEETEST, CUTEST PERSON ALIVE THAT MAKES ME FEEL LIKE I WAN TO SMILE ALL THE TIME" and it's still... so true.... oh my god hana i love you so much s;fjklsdf lMFAOSD HAHA I JUST BURST OUT INTO THE BIGGEST SMILE WHILE I WAS TYPING THIS. WHENEVER I THINK OF YOU I JUST THINK OF SWEET FLUFFY THINGS AND FLOWERS AND EVERYTHING THAT MAKES ME HAPPY. so i hope you know that you bring that kind of sweetness into the world and i'm so glad that i've gotten to meet you through rp. and also the fact that you came back to recolle really makes my heart soar because i'm so, so excited to be able to play with you again. your tags are so much fun to bounce off of and also just plotting and talking to you oocly is fun too. you're a sweetheart and a wonderful person and i'm so glad that you've found time for recolle again because the game is richer with you in it. thank you for everything that you bring to the game and to my life because i treasure every moment i get to spend with you. i hope that 2018 is good to you and brings you every sweet and wonderful experience that you deserve!!
JAE » WELL FOR ONE FINALLY I GOT TO MEET YOU AFTER ALL THESE YEARS OH MY GOD JAE. being able to spend hours with you at con even if we were just goofing off and learning how to JJ style in line is everything to me. i'm so happy to be able to call you a friend and talk to you after all these years - because we've really, really known each other a long time LMFAO. i can't even begin to explain the profound influence that you've had in my life, whether it's that time that i fell into the senbasa pit because of you and never really managed to find my way out or just when i throw myself at you every few months to say hi. you're someone that i think of when i consider the way that friendship is truly timeless, limitless, and i can say for a fact that i adore you so, so much. you're an amazing person who's doing wonderful things and so thoughtful to everyone that you know and i just. goodness gracious i love you jae, there's just no way around it. i love everything that you've brought to my life and i can't wait to know you for another 10 more years.
JAN » i don't think i'll ever get tired of waxing poetic about you because i love you so much jan LMFAOSDFJ; GOD. I ADORE YOU MORE THAN WORDS CAN EVEN BEGIN TO SAY. WHENEVER SOMEONE MENTIONS YOU TO ME I'M LIKE "FUCK!!! I LOVE JAN!!!!!" because i do i do i do, jan you've been a part of my life for so, so long. for so long that i can't even think about what i was doing before i knew you. you've grown with me over the years and sometimes i still think about when you called me a kouhai and i couldn't be prouder to be someone's kouhai. jan you're a wonderful person and i'm so glad that you've managed to find your joy in murdergames where everyone screams about you just as much as i do!!!! affectionately of course, cries, just with nothing but love. and then i'm so glad to share a game with you again because i always need jan tags in my inbox. when we got back to multithreading it really did feel like coming home, like it was something i've always needed in my life. i always need you in my life though, regardless of the actual context. thank you for all the years that we've spent together jan and i can't wait for even more. i love and treasure you so dearly and wish for endless fortune to bless you in 2018.
JELLE » WELL FOR ONE EVERY TIME THAT YOU REAPPEAR ON PLURK I FEEL LIKE IT'S CHRISTMAS ALL OVER AGAIN. jelle i love you so much and i still think it's absolutely ridiculous that i literally got to visit the netherlands just to see you oh my god. and then we spent a day together and i nearly cried because i was so happy about it as;dklfjasdf. you're a wonderful person and when i was looking at tenka threads the other day i was once again remembering shinpachi and your endless love for shinpachi. do you remember that photo that you took of you reaching out to touch his shirtless cg because i still think about that a lot. LMFAO I MISS RPING WITH YOU AND TALKING TO YOU BUT IN GENERAL I HOPE THAT YOU'RE DOING WELL. i also have been slowly descending into kpop hell and i'm like "is jelle still here, jelle help me" and i really need to get around to line messaging you to that effect. i love you so much and i hope that 2018 brings you wonder and joy and we get back in touch but until then you still have all my affection
JES » JES!!! THE ONE WHO FUCKIN KILLS IT AT ADULTING LMFAOSFJ;. TRULY ADULT LIFE GOALS. i'm not going to lie i love the fact that even though we don't share a game anymore we still manage to chat about anything that goes on during our days LMFAO. whether it's hair, makeup, or grad school i always love talking to you - and we'll absolutely get around to doing bleach one of these days dammit. what if i make that a 2018 new year's resolution jes, whaT IF I DID THAT i might do that. but no in general i absolutely adore you and i think that you're amazing and i think tha you're going to fUCKIN KILL IT IN YOUR ADVANCED STUDIES and i can't wait for you to share everything that you learn. we have to be polisci buddies through the end of course. i admire you so much and i think that the way that you grab life and slam into it with everything that you've got is absolutely amazing. you're doing great things and that makes me so happy to see always. all of your hard work is really paying off!! clutches chest. so i hope that 2018 continues to be ready for your badassery because i don't see it stopping here. i can't wait to see what you do with the world and hopefully we'll be able to get through our grad school adventures together!
KAMI » god kamilah you're so!!! goddamn cute!! LIKE LITERALLY I JUST LOOKED AT YOUR NAME AND I THOUGHT ABOUT WHEN YOU JUST SHOW UP AT MY DISCO TO ASSAULT ME WITH KACCHAKO ART OR WHEN YOU BUMP INTO ME MAKING SOME CUTE NOISE WHEN WE'RE SITTING NEXT TO EACH OTHER IN THE CAR AND YOU'RE SO!! CUTE!! A MENACE BUT SO FUCKIN CUTE!!! covers face. you literally spoil your friends rotten and honestly i love it whenever you get into something new because you really do throw your everything into it. like from legend of korra into yoi into ice skating into heroaca i'm literally losing my shit as i think about everything that earns your passion and how much you then put into it. it's wonderful to watch because it's so much fun to watch one of your friends really, really enjoy themselves with something. you're a wonderful friend and a sweet person and i love getting to hang out with you. you work so hard at everything and as someone who can't keep up with exercising for more than 2 weeks the level of dedication that you put into ice skating or getting stronger is amazing and i can't fuckin wait for you to end up on ninja warrior so we can all cheer for you on the sidelines LMFAO. i adore you endlessly and can't wait to see you next and i'm so glad that we've gotten to spend this year together - as i'm sure that we'll continue to spend more together alsooooo
KAYE » KAYE I LOVE YOU..... like for one i'm so excited that we get to be in a game together again? i love zero so much even though i know literally the absolute bare minimum about her canon LMFAO. how much you love her shows in your rping and even in your plurk memes and it's more than enough to hook me into the character, right along with your writing. i'm so glad that we get to play off each other again - our characters always have the most ridiculous dynamics and i die - but i also love the fact that we get to talk and chat as friends even when we're not in a game together. when friendships expand past rp it's really my favorite thing ever and i can say with certainty that i'm blessed to be able to share that with you. thank you for the years that we've gotten to spend together and i can't wait to see what you're able to accomplish in 2018. you've always been constantly growing and improving as a person and i'm sure the same will be true in 2018.
KC » YOU!!!!!!!! listen there's not a lot of people on this list that i can really manage to say left an impact not only on me but also on my ice gays lAUGHS. EVERYTHING THAT YOU GAVE ME WAS SHARED WITH THEM AND THEY APPRECIATED ALL OF IT. thank you so much and i'm so glad that i managed to meet you this year. i feel like our friendship was honest to god 3fast5furious and i wouldn't have it any other way. i adore you so much and i hope that you're doing well - or as well as you can be, depending on the circumstances. you're such an admirable, excellent, and caring person and also a talented and gifted writer and i'm so glad that 2017 managed to give you enough inspiration to enjoy writing again. that's a gift that really manages to outclass all others, i think. laughs. you've managed to make people laugh and cry and smile with the words that come from your head and i think that's only fitting - you're talented and i'm so glad that you're sharing that with the world. i miss you of course but i hope that you're doing well even more than that, and it would feel wrong for me to look back on this past year and not notice the influence that you had on my life. thank you for being a part of it and being there for me when i needed you and i hope that 2018 brings you every happiness that you deserve after giving so much to others.
KELSEY » for one i think that you're amazing. and i really don't know if i say this enough, but i think that you're smart and talented and hard working and you deserve every good thing in the entire universe. you are one of the players in recolle that really shaped my experience in the game because i think about how i got unreasonably attached to a ygo character and the meta surrounding his life, laughs. you are so thoughtful in everything that you do and i hope you know that even if i sometimes don't always remember to hit you up on disco or comment on your plurks, i endlessly encourage you to do the things that make you happy because that's more important to me than literally anything else laughs. i think that the narrative you've built is well-research and ambitious and fuckin amazing because i don't think i've ever seen anything like it. you're just so awesome that i literally suck at being able to say more about it laughs. overall though thank you for being my friend and giving me advice throughout the year when i hit a rough patch and always encouraging me when i don't know what to do. you're always sensible and helpful and i'm so, so fortunate to have been able to find you this year. i hope 2018 treats you well and i can't wait to be able to spend even more of it playing with you!
KIMMEH » you are such a goddamn sweetheart jfc. kimmeh i love you a lot and i don't always know what's going on in your life but i hope you know that i think you are a goddamn badass for dealing with literally everything that life has thrown at you and still being such a kind, loving, sweet person after dealing with all of it. like you are so full of love and life that i just don't know what to do with myself when faced with it all LMFAO. i love being able to plot with you and getting to know you this year like - i'm so glad that recolle managed to introduce you into my life because i feel like a much happier person for it. also you have an amazing set of commission recs LMFAO HAHAHA i'm 98% sure you're the reason why i fell for the commission bug again smh!! you're a fantastic person and so sweet and i love the families that you create in recolle seemingly right out of nothing because it's like. actual magic LMFAO. thank you for being a wonderful friend to me this year and bringing me so many reasons to laugh and smile. i can't wait to see what 2018 has in store and i hope that it's really kind to you or else i'll have to beat it into submission.
KIT » I'VE ALREADY TOLD YOU IN THE PAST HOW COOL I THINK YOU ARE BUT IDK SOMETIMES I JUST FEEL LIKE REPEATING IT. i maintain that of the people that i've met in recolle i think that your writing in particular is absolutely phenomenal and #goals. i'm so glad that i've gotten to meet you this year because i've gotten to stalk all your threads and develop cr with you and also talk to you in general. i think your willingness to plot with people and come up with ideas on the fly to develop cr is amazing and part of also what makes you such a welcoming person in the game. everyone wants cr with you and tbh i think that's only fair and right?? also the fact that you were willing to set up this murdergame for everyone to have fun with over the holidays is also fantastic and i can say just from how much teej talks to me about it that it's clearly an excellent and entertaining ride. you're wonderful at creating spaces where people feel at home and relaxed enough for all sorts of off the cuff fun. also as a person you're amazing and talented and i've told you all those things before, laughs. thank you for being a part of my life this year and i can't wait to see what 2018 has in store for us also. i hope that it brings you all sorts of hilarity and fun.
KOSY » BAE!!!!!!!!! bae i love you so goddamn much LMFAOSDF;J. we don't talk as often as we used to anymore but that's okay and i hope you know that i'm constantly wishing for your happiness. i hope you know that i still think of you every time i see something with leo or kanata and you will always be my leader and my ryusei blue in my heart. you're endlessly talented and beautiful and smart and sweet and kind and i honestly i would absolutely ruin a thesaurus trying to think of every word to describe you. you are one of my favorite people on this goddamn planet and every time i got to talk to you again was enough to brighten up my mood for like days. we've been friends for years and i treasure you so goddamn much and i hope you know that. you mean the world to me and i hope that 2017 brought you actual metric shittons of happiness because that's what you deserved. and i hope 2018 will bring you even more wonderful things and also the ryusei vs knights event that we've been waiting for because we all have to suffer in enstars hell a little bit LMFAO
LISA » so i'm like waiting for the day that someone else brings up your name to me as an artist so i can be like "AH YES LISA, THAT ICON, TELL ME FRIEND HAVE YOU EVER HEARD OF ARM TOTS" and i'm only half kidding;lskdjf. i think that you're kind of a legend?? i don't know if i've met anyone else in rpland who's so willing and excited to make their character fail or flail or fall flat on their face repeatedly but let me tell you friend everything that you're doing to bucky barnes is fucking amazing. i still think of when i was in ty and pip's apartment in august and you posted that art of bucky suplexing a cow and the entire apartment burst out into laughter - and i still think that it's amazing that you can create such beautiful things (both art and situations) that will make an entire room fill with warmth. you have so much talent and skill and i hope you get to see all the results that you're looking for every time you share your talent and creativity with the world. i'm so, so, so glad that i've gotten to know you this year and you've indulged all my questions about your passion and your work because i think you're just one of the coolest people i've gotten to meet.
LUCY » god lucy you're absolutely ridiculous LMFAO. EVERY TIME I THINK OF PEOPLE IN RPLAND WHO I AM AMAZED BY ALL THE GODDAMN TIME YOU'RE ONE OF THE FIRST NAMES TO POP UP ALWAYS. for one you've created an amazing game with ty and megs and i can't even begin to thank you for that. like thanks to you three i've added so many names to this list of people that i've gotten to know - including yours now that we're no longer people whose paths never directly crossed in rp LMFAO. it's been so much fun to build cr with you and plot ridiculous things with you and i will forever love how you're just up for any random adventure in all your tags. you bridge cr with so many people and welcome people to your game and i'm so glad that i've gotten to know you over this past year. you're so much fun to talk idols with and hopefully in the coming year i'll be able to actually play family cr with you i'm dying. but thank you for letting me be a part of your life, lucy. you're one of the most sincere, hard-working, dedicated, and fantastic people that i've ever gotten to meet and i can't thank you enough for everything that you do. thank you and here's to another year of getting to know each other even better!!
MARIE » LMFAO JESUS CHRIST how did i... not know you... more than a few months ago. i tend to go 3fast5furious with my friendships but honestly Marie I think that you're one of the coolest people that I've gotten to meet in 2017. for one just based on your rl plurks you do amazing work and i admire you for that alone. you are such a strong, capable person even though i know that a lot of rl is often spent screaming going "whAT AM I DOING" i honestly think that you're great. and even when rl gets hard you always manage to work past it and that's more important than anything else. then in the rp-sphere thanks for going along with all of my terribad horrendous ideas and then sometimes pouring gasoline on them to make the trashfire burn all the brighter. that is truly all we need this christmas season LMFAO. but no in all seriousness - thank you for being so much fun to play off of and plot with. thank you for being so kind and willing to help when i'm floundering so badly. thank you for generally being a joy and i can't wait to build our cr even more this coming year. i'm so glad that i've met you and i hope that you never doubt for a second the light that you bring to other people because i sincerely find you dazzling.
MIRA » UM THERE SHE IS???? THE SUPERSTAR??? LMFAO MIRA YOU'RE SO COOL. like i mean with all your vocal training and whatnot i think you're so phenomenal? you do such intense shows? you kill your auditions and in general you're just? a star? you're such a star. since i didn't get to see you at fanime this past year i hope you know that i'm extra determined to find a way to see you this 2018. in general i want to say that i adore you and i appreciate you so much as a friend. you handle me when i'm at my most fangirly or at my absolute saltiest and you deal with it with so much grace LMFAO. you're a sweetheart without compare and the love that you have for people and writing and your characters is amazing. i love every au that we get to build and all the cr dynamics that we get to try out because you're so willing to adventure with absolutely anything and everything. you're someone that i treasure dearly and am so glad that i get to have you in my life. thank you for everything and here's to another spectacular year together.
NAT » sometimes i look back on the night that we met and i was like "um wow this girl is so pretty?? and so funny??? and nice??? how does one person manage to have it all" LMFAO HAHA AND I REALLY. HAVEN'T CHANGED MY MIND ALL THAT MUCH. nat you're an amazing human being and i adore you. you make me smile and laugh every time that we get to see each other and i'm glad that we've gotten to know each other better over this year anD I'M SOOO EXCITEEEDDD THAT SINCE YOU MOVED I'LL GET TO SEE YOU MORE AND MORE. my heart is so full what the fuck. thanks for being stuck in the enstars hellpit with me that absorbs us in conversation for like an hour at a time while pip and ty tune us out and do something else LMFAO HAHAHA. i'm so glad for it and i absolutely can't say enough how happy i am that you're in my life. i feel like i can talk to you about anything and everything and you're such a good friend. you're kind and warm and open-hearted and smart and hard-working and i can sing your praises until my fingers fall off. i'm lucky to have you in my life and can't say that enough. i'm not sure how to finish this so i'll just wrap it up by saying i hope you got a lot of cheese for christmas.
PIP » you know i have no idea why because it was such a one off mention but i really do feel the need to call you Pip Pip Style all the time even though i know you hate me for it LMFAOAS;DFJK GOD. OKAY WHERE DO I.... WHERE DO I EVEN BEGIN ON THIS. alright so you know how much i love my ice gays and how much i talk about them and being able to find a home within like - people. a group of people. and i just.... i just love that you did that. i love that you opened up your entire home for that. i love that you insist to people "um you live here????" until they, apparently like nat, jUST ACTUALLY DO. THEY REALLY DO JUST LIVE THERE. and i think that says so much about you big heart. and your openness to people from all walks of life because you'll show that kind of care and love for your friends without reserve. and pip the world needs more people like you. they desperately need people who are willing to show that kindness and love for people around them and i'm just so happy and blessed that i get to know that you even exist - that people like you exist. you have so much strength and so much sweetness and i adore you without end. i'd do anything for you and i hope you know that. you make me smile with all your love live screaming and when you do that thing where you laugh-scream "GODDAMMIT" when someone says something ludicrous in your presence which is often. thanks for helping build up so many of my fondest memories this year and here's to a glorious 2018.
PIXI » OH PIXI WHAT WOULD I DO WITHOUT YOU - i'd be left floundering not sure what happens in the rest of rengoku ni warau probably lmfaosdf;j. OUR FRIENDSHIP GOES BEYOND THAT, OF COURSE, I TREASURE YOU DEARLY I ADMIRE THE WORK YOU DO CONSTANTLY I THINK THAT YOUR KENDO PRACTICE IS SO FREAKING COOL!!!!! all of that but like. i have to say that i'm floored constantly by something that you were so willing and ready to do. like you said that it was just like more japanese practice to you and you set your own schedule and everything but i can't even begin to express how grateful and astonished and touched i am that you gave me something that i was waiting years for without even blinking. you have such an open heart and an unbelievable amount of sweetness and you're so willing to share everything you have to give with people. i'm amazed by you and am so glad that i get to call you a friend. thank you. you're a gift and i can't wait to spend 2018 getting to know you even better even as you slow roast me over a fire because of my grandpa
RAY » sometimes i think about how you don't drink coffee or take morning showers and i continue to think "my god the zombie apocalypse is going to come and ray is going to be stronger than us all" lMFAOSDF;J HAHAH. um in all seriousness i'm so glad that i got to meet you this year. i think that you're a stellar human being with infectious energy and the ability to make even the grouchiest person smile. you're so willing to chat with anyone about anything which i love to no end because holy fuck i love chatter LMFAO. you're fun to play off of in games and the fact that you picked up uraraka the actual best girl maKES SO MUCH SENSE TO ME. THAT JUST MAKES!! TOO MUCH SENSE!!!! RAY IS SO STRONG AND URARAKA IS SO STRONG!!! so i hope you know that's exactly what i think of you. it's been great getting to know you this year and i hope that we only grow closer in the new year!!
SIB » sib you're so cool.... al;skdjfasdf LMFAOASD;FJ SOMETIMES I THINK ABOUT WHEN YOU WERE LIKE "DANA'S SO NORMAL FOR AN RPER" BUT REALTALK I DON'T CARE MUCH ABOUT BEING NORMAL WHEN I THINK YOU'RE SO AWESOME HAHA. like i love you, i love your spider, i love all of your animal companions really, i lOVE that you're getting to move forward with your life and do even more fantastic things that i can only try to wrap my mind around. like you are seriously so capable and so kind and so talented - like you translate and you do art and you are so freakin smart??? sib you're an awesome person and i hope that you don't doubt that for even a second in 2018 because i think that's pretty blasphemous LMFAO. ugh i'm the worst at psls but i hope you know that i am excited to be able to tag with you more soon because i miss rping with you dearly, but i'm glad that even outside of that i get to follow along with your life adventures on plurk and i always, always, always hope that you're doing well. i hope that 2018 is kind to you and brings you many wonderful things
SHAY » shay i'm so glad that i've gotten to meet you through recolle?? like for one i still think that peach phone is fuckin iconic and also i just opened your plurk today where farrah was so sure you were francy and i died i super died UGH SO MANY HILARIOUS THINGS JUST. HAPPEN AROUND YOU AND IT'S AMAZING. your sense of humor is fuckin perfect also and tagging with you is always a delight. in general i'm so glad that i've gotten to meet you and consider you to be someone in recolle that i really, really, really need to tag even more because i enjoy threading with you that much. you are a wonderful person and so willing to plot with people and do all sorts of crazy shit with your characters as one would expect from their canons laughs. so i absolutely just wanted to leave a note with how much i appreciate you and how i can't wait to get thread with you even more in the coming year.
TEEJ » LMFAO TEEJ MY DAYS AREN'T COMPLETE IF I DON'T GET TO TALK TO YOU. god i could say so much and i cold go on forever - but it really feels like i got to know you this year. i'm so glad that you decided to app into recolle with me and then even agreed to all sorts of pre-game cr with me. you're one of the main reasons why i was convinced into apping baren in the first place and after all the things that i've gotten to do with him, you know that i appreciate that to no end. you've supported me through so many difficult times this year too and i sincerely don't know what i would've done without you. you're so important to me and i'm so grateful that i get to have you as a friend. it's honestly an honor and i'm grateful every single day that i don't have to worry about hitting you up with random thoughts because you'll just pick up whatever i put down no problem. you're so dear to me and i love you even though you made me scream through all of bungou stray dogs i suppose i forgive you for that. but in all sincerity i appreciate you more than i have actual words for and all i can say is that i hope that 2018 brings us both excellent adventures and a lot of fun. you work so hard and i hope that you get a lot of relaxation time too. points at eyes points at you sakuracon is going to be so much fun and i can't wait to see you!
TSUBO » sometimes i think about the fact that we haven't threaded in about a thousand years and also the fact that we only had maybe one thread together when we were in the same game and sometimes that'd be enough for me to only end up crossing paths with someone but like - tsubo you're such a wonderful person that i can sincerely call you a friend that i made not though rp but more through just random conversations on plurk. you are so sweet and encouraging for every single person on your plurk list like - between you and hana i don't know if i've ever met a more sweet and genuine and sincere pair of people on plurk. being able to know you is such a treat and a delight like. you leave such a positive influence on every single person that you know and i can't even begin to mention how important i think it is for everyone to have at least one friend like you but like, you're so rare that not everyone gets to? i'm so lucky that i get to. you're a joy and i adore every single thing about you. thank you for being my friend in 2018 and i can't wait to keep walking forward in life with you because i can't ever imagine letting you go?
TY » LMAO FUCK where do i... even begin here..... ty, sometimes i forget that i haven't known you all my life. like i've known some people on plurk for like a decade and sometimes i sincerely forget that you are not one of those people. our friendship is still so fresh and short but also like - i trust you so much. with everything. i love you so much, also with everything that i have. you're such a kind, open, sweet, thoughtful, intelligent, and sensible person that i really don't know how you handle everything in your life with as much grace as you do aND I'M SURE THAT YOU'LL BE LIKE "LMAO GRACE???" OR SOMETHING LIKE THAT but no like. i think that you're absolutely amazing at everything you touch. you are one of the most hard-working people i know. you're driven and you give so much into everything that you do. along with lucy and megs you literally gave me a home game that let me meet so many new people this year and i can't imagine that i would've done without it. on top of that you also are part of the LA squad that i consider my extended family at this point. thank you for inviting me to spend time with you and meet all these people and just. bringing so much warmth into my life. you are someone that i will always hold dear in my heart and i can't wait to spend another year with you with all sorts of new adventures.
YANA » YANA YOU ARE SO SMART AND SO COOL AND LITERALLY EVERYTHING YOU TOUCH IS BEAUTIFUL. or hilarious. really both is good i think and that balance is vitally important LMFAO. no i just think that like - whether it's the translations that you offer up for commission or the graphics that you make or the way that you're willing to just talk to anyone on your plurk that i just sincerely admire and adore you so much. we haven't shared a game in a while but i feel like that doesn't even matter because i just enjoy talking to you. i like opening your plurks to see how your life is going (here's hoping your parents find their chill in 2018 goddamn) and honestly i still don't have a doubt in my mind that you'll be able to do great things with your life. you're absurdly talented at plenty of things and i just hope that the situations that are thrown at you will like y'know. chill out. because you deserve a break considering all the hard work that you put into things. but i hope you know that regardless of all that, i think that you're skilled and awesome and fantastic and truly believe that everything will work out for you. i'm always here if you want to vent or talk also but in general i just wish for fun, excellent, and most importantly relaxing things to come your way
YAYWON » LMFAO FUCK yaywon you're.. so great... i'm laughing because i always laugh when i talk to you? like literally even just typing this made the biggest smile crack on my face and i'm just honestly sincerely really happy that like. even after all these years and the fact that i actually don't remember the last time we shared a game - we're still friends. whether it's from screaming about akayona (um soo-won/lili otp) or now about rengoku ni warau or kpop (gOD WHY AM I BACK HERE), we can seriously just talk about anything. you're someone that's just really easy to talk to and have fun with and - i was about to type "it feels like we've been friends for ages" but then i realized that might be because we've actually been friends for ages LMFAO HAHA. i've known you for so long and i've adored you for so long and now all i want in 2018 is to be able to get more baren and okuni threads with you because i'll be real, i'm nervous a lot about having someone play twins with me but you're someone that i trust 100%. even more than that if possible. but i hope that 2018 treats you kindly and brings you joy and laughter like how you bring it to the rest of the world
YUFF » I'LL BE HONEST WHEN I THINK OF PROMINENT PLAYERS IN RECOLLE, I THINK OF YOU OFTEN. and i think about how lucky i am to have gotten to know you over this year. i'm dyin because i think about how much i miss threading with you (and i will fix that in 2018 god help me) but i wouldn't have felt right if i didn't leave you a note about how sincerely fantastic i think you are and how much you bring to the game. for one you are a goddamn coding wiZARD and your dedication to creating tools to help the entire goddamn game is an act of generosity without compare. i tell people about how i literally had to code my AC over the course of 4 days the first time around and i'm like "plEASE USE YUFF'S CODE, PLEASE LOVE YOURSELF" LMFAO. but more than that i want to say that being able to plot with you and just chat with you in people's plurks is a gift - you're among the most welcoming players in the entire game and i think the entire game is warmer with you in it. and i just wanted to say those things when i otherwise wouldn't have gotten a chance to and wish you a warm and happy new year that brings you every rp dream that you want - and every rl dream too LAUGHS. you're such a nice and devoted person, you deserve every good thing that this world gives you.
YUUL » WAILS. YUUUUUL. I CAN'T BELIEVE I MET YOU OFFICIALLY THIS YEAR EVEN THOUGH WE'VE LIVED IN THE SAME TOWN FOR 203948324 YEARS LMFAODF;J. i'm dying. no i hope that this fanime we get to hang out some more!! you're such a fun person and - i'll be honest sometimes i think back to that one day maybe like. 3? 4? years ago where i felt down about something and you proceeded to send me the sweetest, most uplifting series of snapchat doodles and i just about died. we don't get to talk a lot but i hope you know that i adore you endlessly and i think of you whenever i think about k-pop and overwatch LAUGHS. i hope that this holiday season brought you as much warmth as the south bay can offer and i can't wait to get a chance to hang out with you again sometime soon. you're an awesome, hilarious person and i love whenever i get to talk to you. that's the sort of healing and encouraging aura that you bring into people's lives. may 2018 bring you and your dog so much happiness (please tell him i love him so much he's my fav snapchat star)
EVERYONE » 2017 was the year that I met a lot of you or that I got to know some of you better or in some cases, where some people and I drifted apart - but I do want to say with absolute certainty that I appreciate every single person on my plurk list that bothered to even speak a word to me. Thank you for being able to spare me some of your time and kindness. I never once doubt that I am absurdly loved and absurdly lucky to have so many people in my life who are willing to give me that time of day. You have my gratitude and affection and I hope that 2018 brings you both happiness and peace.
Ah yes. 2017. I - mm. Where do I really begin with this?
Well for one, I started off 2017 horribly. So badly! Wow!! The first few weeks of 2017 is when I think I remember there being absolute insane rains in California. Seasonal Affective Disorder was always there in theory and it would hit in small ways but apparently if you take the sun away from me for weeks at a time, I become a lump of a person. My mood dived horribly and I wasn't sure what to do with myself. I knew that I needed to start seeing a counselor? I didn't put as much as effort into my post-grad applications as I could've and—
holy fuck, looking back on it, I was kind of a major disappointment in the beginning of 2017. ah, I'd found footing in RP sure but what does that mean when my RL was... it wasn't falling apart, no, but it wasn't doing very well at all. not by my standards. I didn't get into some programs that I really wanted to get into, I wasn't doing well in my classes, I hung out with my residents less in the beginning of the year, I sincerely felt like I'd lost some irreplaceable friends in 2016 (and... I did - I did, but I'd thought I'd lost them in the way that made me therefore broken for all future relationships. that's the part that wasn't true.) I....
i really wasn't myself, was i? or maybe I was - maybe that sort of living is the type of living that I should've anticipated. maybe at base, that sad sack of a depressed and unsuccessful person is who I really am.
... but I don't want to believe in that.
because after that I graduated. I made new friends. I found an amazing job just months out of college that's set me up for success in all my future endeavors. I -
god this is going to sound so ridiculous but. in 2016, I gathered a bunch of my random friends - some of them had never met - and I made them all sit down in my room to watch episodes one through three of Yuri!!! on Ice on Halloween night. and that was the start, only the very beginning of a group called Ice Gays. and I can't talk about 2017 without talking about my Ice Gays. because we made a Groupchat that i just felt like making and then we made a snapchat group and. I've graduated, you know?? I left my college half a year ago. but it's New Year's Eve and they're still talking. on Halloween some people commented and said "oh fuck we've been ice gays-ing for a year." and the thing is that I don't take credit for the group, not really. it was a whim of mine but I remember when we were all sat down for a dinner before I was going to drive home after graduation and. they would all say "no Ice Gays was all Dana." and now there's a safe space for these people. they still hang out even without me. they talk about it like it's me leaving a legacy. like it's a magical thing that I brought - where I could bring these people together and give them something new to enjoy all together and it's their own community and.
sometimes it's those little things.
sometimes I think about how hard it is to keep going, to find something to keep going for. this year has been an epic shitshow of unbelievable proportions. following the news is goddamn hard. everyday I think there's some going to be new exciting way that one of my identities will be marginalized further by the government that I spent four years of my goddamn life studying because I thought that it could be a force for good
but then I think of those moments - where you can have 15 people cramped in a room yelling over anime, then discussing the importance of LGBTQ representation in media, learning from each other and respectfully calling each other out - those 2 am conversations where someone opens up to you, those phone calls you have that cross 300 miles when you really need someone, those crisp, clear, beautifully raw moments
and i'll think
"i'm glad i got that."
i'm glad that i got to experience those little mundane moments of magic - and i wouldn't have been able to if i had thought to hide things that matter to me. if I lied about liking anime. if I wasn't so excited to share the things that I love with other people. if I wasn't... me, how different would my life be?
i think 2017 was my last year of college where I wasn't afraid to be myself. in every capacity. in terms of RL i - god, I was open, so open. if someone wanted to have a conversation about politics, i would have it. if someone wanted to talk to me about racism, i'd be there for it. if someone crossed me for even a second with a bit of racism or misogyny, i'd set them aflame. if i came back from a counseling appointment and one of my residents would ask me where i was, i would tell them. because mental health conversations are important to have and.
this year i realized that dear god i'm fucked up HAHA. we all are, in little ways, i think. and sometimes those little ways are more in number and people are different. but you know i used to be so scared of talking about my faults. because acknowledging them would somehow make other people fixate on them like "holY FUCK DANA WE THOUGHT YOU WERE PERFECT UNTIL LITERALLY JUST THIS MOMENT!!" kind of logic.... and - maybe some people still are like that. maybe they don't think i'm perfect but they buy into this facade that i have that my flaws are minor and i have the rest of life figured out but -
i think that's the thing.
i think no one has life figured out and we're all just trying to get the little bits of our life under control, one piece at a time. i think those moments of open, raw honesty about imperfections are all the more important. and i think acknowledging that this year has been good for me. having to admit that no, as much as i try to make it seem like it's true, i am imperfect. sometimes it's even in my quest for perfection that my flaws become more prominent. maybe my quest for perfection is in itself a flaw.
i don't need to be perfect.
i just need to be me.
i don't need to be anyone but me.
and when mistakes happen, i need to own them, breathe them in, and learn from them.
and i need to remember most of all that everyone else has struggles that i don't know fucking anything about.
all i'm trying to do is follow the path that makes me happiest.
and that's the same for everyone around me.
(obviously some shit still won't fly LMAO like damn white supremacists can meet me in the pit oohhh honey)
- but i think. laughs. i'll be happier if i remember that.
i'm in a good place in life and - i'm content. i've come a long way from where i was in 2016. there are still imperfections that i want to fix but. being perfect sounds boring, doesn't it? what kind of life is that? we are all still working to improve ourselves every single day. that's the whole point of living.
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ABI » LMFAO OH ABI can you believe that i didn't know you in the beginning of the year because i can't. i'm so unbelievably glad that recolle managed to bring us together. i just wanted to leave a note for you to say that i consider you to be one of the most open-hearted and sweetest people that i've encountered in rpland. even if our cr has been all over the place and hiatuses have left us a little bit further than usual I didn't want to forget to just tell you that I'm thankful for all the threads that we've gotten to have this year. I didn't even expect Dante and Anya to be where they are now and I can't wait to see what direction they move forward to from here. you're an engaging writer and so willing to open up as many opportunities to other people to rp as humanly possible and i think that's amazing. so i hope 2018 brings you wonderful, beautiful things like the light that you bring to other people and i can't wait to spend more of it with you
AKI » well for one, I'm so glad that I was able to finally meet you in person. things that I'm sad about: I did not get to witness your party tricks in person???? truly our list of memes are too much. but i'm laughing I always wax poetic about how much I adore you when I'm drunk it's different to do it sober. I'm sure that there'll always be more for me to say but in general thank you for being one of my dearest, closest friends. you're the perfect person to talk to whether it's 4 am and it's meme time or ghost time or it's in the middle of the day and I feel the need to scream about some new politics or nonsense fandom thing. you endure so much of my yelling.... so much.... and for that I really don't know what I'd do without you. thank you for falling down mankin memory pits with me, thank you for letting me occasionally pretend that i don't belong in swordhell, thank you for being someone who has enriched my life in ways that I can only sort of barely begin to explain. you mean the world to me and I'm pretty sure you know that by now but I figure it can't hurt to say again.
ARI » ari the amazing beauty guru, the amazing friend, the A+++ cosplayer where do I even begin!!! how can so much talent exist in one human? it's a little ridiculous to me that in the beginning of the year I didn't even know you, we weren't even in the same game, we didn't even know each other existed in this universe and - now I can say with certainty that I'm so glad that I know you. you bring me so much joy every time you come into my plurks even if it's over my trash boy?? ? I can't believe that you really read through all of his canon and come into my screaming plurks. i'm dying. but i'm so glad that recolle has brought us together, has brought me the joy of baren and futaba cr that i didn't even know that i needed until rng put us together on the same plot team. and honestly just talking to you oocly is also wonderful bc you have so many answers for so many of life's beauty mysteries LMFAO your con adventures are also fun to follow along with and i hope that you get to attend many more in the coming year. thank you so much for being my friend and i can't wait to spend even more time with you in the coming year.
ALEX » alex you're phenomenal??? you're amazing. you're just. goD. i shake my head at myself every time because i think you're so truly out of this world. i think it's amazing that you have your dream job - in the sense that you are real living proof to me that holy fuck hard work can pay off and you really can reach those goals that you set for yourself. i'm completely unsurprised of course because you're one of the smartest and sweetest and sharpest people that i know. it's another case where I'm shooketh that we didn't cross paths in rpland before this year but I'm so glad that recolle has brought us together? our CR is fun, unexpected, and constantly evolving and changing and I'm delighted over that every single day. I love tagging with your characters and I love plotting with you and in general I love reading your life updates and how your day is going. tbh in my head you're an almost larger than life figure not unlike Queen C herself and I can't wait to see how you'll continue world domination in 2018. you're a star and I'm so glad that I can call you a friend.
AME » HEY THERE BEAUTIFUL SMART LOVELY PERFECT GIRL. ame i love you? ame i love you ame i love you ame i love you and i will say this a thousand times until you think you've heard it enough and then i'll keep saying it some more. we don't share a game anymore and we don't always talk that much anymore and - both of these things bum me out i hope you know that, but i hope you also know that i wish for your happiness all the time. you've had a hard year and you've been having to make so many changes and trying to make people happy but i hope that in 2018 you really get to make yourself happy. because you work hard. you do everything you can for people. you don't let people forget how much they mean to you. and i hope with every single piece of my heart that you have an easier, more relaxing, more fulfilling in 2018 because you deserve it. you do. and i'll be rooting for you every step of the way and i hope you know that no matter what i'm always here. if you ever need anything at all, i'm here. i consider you a friend for life.
AMY » okay but to be honest one of my favorite memories from this year was when it was spontaneously a little meeting of DWRPers in a random Marriott hotel lobby at AX LMFAO it was honestly the most... absolutely random places to run into you but I'm so glad I did??? you are an absolute delight and I wanted to say thank you for making my 2017 brighter now that I've found someone else who cries about Tenka just as much as I cry about Tenka. hopefully in 2018 we'll actually??? thread together???? ugly laughs. until then I do want to say that I admire your skills as a cosplayer and as an ice skater and I wish you every happiness because you are such an open, warm, and kind person. I hope that you continue to reach greater heights and look forward to entering 2018 with you as a friend!
ARA » did you know that every time i talked about you before i actually added you (again....) on plurk people would just be like "omg yes i love ara" and "ARA IS SO SWEET" and honestly all of these things are super true?? and i just wanted to mention them because holy fuck you're so loved - because you have every reason to be? i have to say that i've absolutely loved our cr in recolle and in general i love love love how you play chiyo oh my god, clutches chest. sometimes i mention your chiyo to other people and they're like "yES ARA'S CHIYO IS SO GOOD" LMFAO. thank you for bringing so much laughter and joy into my 2017 without even meaning to. you are a phenomenal writer and such a sweet person and i'm so glad that i've gotten to talk to you and get to know you more over this year. i hope that we'll continue to thread and develop our cr in 2018 and i'll never stop singing your praises either tbh
BECKS » i really do have to say that i'm really happy that we're in a game together again LMFAO HAHAHA. LIKE IT'S BEEN AGES AND TAGGING WITH YOU IS SO MUCH FUN - yusuke was honestly my favorite from p5 and i'll just get it out of the way to say that you're a fucking phenomenal yusuke. you're so engaging and i'm really happy to have your tags in my inbox again. that said i do have to mention how it cracks me up because i feel like we've been friends outside of rp for longer even if we'd just talk about random things every couple months - and even those friendships mean a lot to me. i've known you for goddamn years at this point and wanted to say thank you for your presence in my life because it's absolutely a more wonderful place with you in it. i'm so glad that you've found your place in recolle and have been having so much fun too, because it's a delight to see you running around and plotting. i hope that 2018 brings you just as much laughter and gagtags as 2017 has, if not more
BELLA » so i literally like. met you within the last month but i appreciate your presence in my life so much so i hope that you don't mind if i leave you a note laughs. for one i think that your drive and passion for writing is amazing and also it's inspiring because it reminds me how badly i need to kick my own ass and get back on the writing horse tbh. you're a fantastic writer and the gifts that you spontaneously leave for people are honestly like small blessings. i'm so glad that i've gotten to thread with you and talk about enstars with you in the past month, but i'm also glad that we got to talk about rl that one time also because knowing what your life is like and how you're trying to find happiness like the rest of us is just as important to me. you're important to me and i hope that you know that in case i'm not obnoxious enough about it. i think you are such a wonderful person and if you would want to open up in the future and share your kindness with others then whoever you meet would be so much richer for it. i think you're the absolute best and i'm sure others would only agree with me?? but regardless thank you for being a part of my life in this last little bit of 2017 and making it all the brighter. i can't wait to spend 2018 with you as someone i can call a dear friend.
BLAIR » considering how much of 2016 i spent looking for you, i think it's hilarious and wonderful and ironic that i found you in 2017 and you became so important to me. laughs i know that our relationship has been kind of a wild rollercoaster ride but i will never stop saying thank you for your patience and your understanding and your willingness to work toward a more well-rounded friendship with me like. blair i think you're wonderful and i hope you know that. i think that you're adorable and excitable and sweet and kind to everyone that you meet and it's one of those things about you that make people so hype to talk to you. you met my energy levels anD THAT ALONE IS A FEAT LET ME TELL YOU but in general thank you for being able to work with me during those times that we weren't on the same wavelength. i love talking to you about the times that the world doesn't make sense or just about enstars or just about anything at all. i love you a whole fuckin lot and i know that this year hasn't always been the best but i hope that 2018 is better because that's what you deserve. you are constantly growing and learning and it delights me to see because you are capable of so, so much and the more that you get in touch with your potential the more excited i get. i hope that you have a wonderful 2018 and i can't wait to spend more of it with you.
BOBA » um let me tell you that one of the main reasons why i was so fuckin excited for recolle is because i was so hype to be in a game with you again LMFAO GOD. AND THEN WE ENDED UP WITH THIS CR THAT IS WAY!! OUT OF CONTROL!!! BOBA!!!!!! WHY IS IT SO BORERLINE CREEPY BUT MOSTLY JUST SWEET LMFAOSDF GOD I'M SO TIRED. ugh no in general though i'm so glad that i've gotten to play with you again and it's so funny when i think about all the different points in time that i met you and realtalk boba you sure are a case where it can be proved that you can find your dream career at any time in life. i love that you're so happy working with dogs now and i still sometimes think about the story of how you detailed your journey and it's still the most practical boba thing i have ever heard LMFAO. you are amazing, you are so funny, you are great to bounce off of in literally any context and i'm so glad that i've known you for as long as i have. that's like. four? five years???? can you believe that i can't lMFAOSDF;J but regardless i hope that 2018 brings you a lot of laughter and i'm literally going to latch onto you and never let go now i just hope you know
BRITT » sometimes i think about how i literally didn't meet you until july and i'm like "i've known britt for less than half a year??? are you fucking sure??" lIKE. THAT'S RIDICULOUS LMFASOD. THAT'S RIDICULOUS AND IT DOESN'T MAKE SENSE AND I KIND OF REFUSE TO BELIEVE IT. because holy fuck britt you now feel like such a staple in my life. like when i go to see pip and ty i of course expect you to be there talking about all the food you want to eat or showing us space idols?? you have brought so much to our lives and i think that also says a lot about you as a person. thank you so much for sharing your dedication and your loves with us because clearly we get swept up in it and learn so much as we go LMFAO. you are a sweetheart without compare, you are so giving, so generous, and i am so, so glad to be able to call you a friend. you're another person who's helped LA feel more and more like home to me ever since I've gotten back from college and I honestly can't remember what life was like before you joined LA Squad or haremlife or whatever we're calling it now. you are so hard-working and sweet and i feel so lucky to know you. thank you for literally everything that you've brought to my life this year and i can't wait to spend more of the new year with you also.
CARD » CARD I STILL CAN'T BELIEVE I MET YOU THIS YEAR???? AND THEN I ALSO MET YOU IRL THIS YEAR???? holy fuck LMFAO. where do i even begin...... well for one i think that you're a really, really, really thoughtful person. i read through your plurks and the extent that you think about your cr and your characters' development and also how you switch that perspective onto your own life and i think that you really have such a rich life and mind. the way that you view the world is one that's incredibly different from my own and i feel like i learn something new every time you share. i'm worried that the words that i haven't aren't enough to convey how much i admire you and how much i appreciate you, but i am trying LMAO. but yeah i - i think that you're wonderful? i think that you're unbelievably smart and hard-working and sometimes i'm also shocked that we more or less grew up maybe 15 minutes away from each other. but regardless i want to sincerely thank you for being a part of my life and playing out a bunch of things with me but also for sharing your perspective and being a great friend. you're so sincere and you throw yourself into everything that you do and i really don't know if i've mentioned before how much i do admire you. i wish you an absolutely amazing 2018 and i can't wait to see what you'll accomplish this coming year too.
COCO » LMFAOSDF;J COCO we've been friends for years and i'm so glad that we finally got to meet at AX this year. you're so wonderful and sweet and i absolutely am even happier that we got to experience the idol concert all together HAHA. YOU'RE SO CUTE... YOU'RE SO CUTE AND SWEET AND EXCITED AND i'm just as excited that we get to play together in a game again?? it's really crazy when i look back at how long we've known each other and it makes me smile to think about how much you've grown - how much we've both changed, and how sincerely i believe that we've both changed for the better. i hope you don't doubt for a second that you're smart, you're wonderful, you're capable, you're adorable, you're a great person who is loved and respected. even when life gets rough i know that you'll make it through. you've gotten so much stronger over the years and i'm so happy for you in all your growth. i hope that 2018 brings you even more greatness and more exciting challenges that you'll conquer. you'll do great and i can't wait to be with you every step of the way.
DEAREST » for fuck's sake i left yours for last too lmfao god i hATE THISSS EVERY TIIIIME
dearest you know i love you i think i've been telling you that for the better part of a decade LMFAOSDF;J. it's sort of crazy looking back on everything we've done together and everything that we hope to do together like - i've said it before but i really do feel like life is easier knowing that i get to do a fair amount of it with you, even if it's just talking to you on disco near daily or giving random life updates as they come. we've grown a lot this year and you especially now command even more programming languages than i knew existed LAUGHS. as always, you bring so much joy and love to literally everyone in your life and make people feel special and wanted. it's always the small things that you do that manage to mean so much. and as always you know that you mean the entire world to me, i am so glad that we figured out a schedule to slam through literally the ancient long list of animes that we've gotten over time and will probably only see continue to grow. i know for a fact that we're going to continue to just blaze through things and tackle the world and life as they both come at us. you put up with me so goddamn much and i always need to thank you for that but. i also need to thank you in general for all the time that we've spent together because you know that i cherish all of it. thank you and i love you and i can't wait for 2018.
FRANCY » sometimes i wonder how you even exist as a person and i don't really come out of it with any more answers but i get to smile while i think about it?? like for one thank you for being someone that i can ping on plurk when One Direction Does a Thing and i can go "frANCYYY HAVE YOU SEEN THIS I'M SCREAMIN". LMFAO. I DON'T REALLY GET TO ENJOY THAT COMBINATION ON PLURK VERY MUCH. but also in general your stories are so good??? i really don't know how your life manages to work out the way it does but you are a phenomenal story teller. this year has been trying and i'm so sorry for all the hardship that you've had to face and anything that might be coming up but - i hope you know that i admire your strength and i find you to be an absolutely amazing person. you're kind to everyone that you meet and you're a joy to play off of not only in rp but even just to talk to. you get so engaged with the people that you ask questions to in plurk and it always makes me smile to see. you have such a genuine interest in people and i think that's amazing. as i've repeated multiple times now - i think that you're amazing. i'm so glad that we got to meet this year and can't wait to see what 2018 will bring us. i wish you and your family the absolute best. may every single success come to you in the coming year because you deserve it.
GIGI » GIGI... WHERE DO I EVEN BEGIN.... LMFAOSF;AJSDF well for one you're one of my favorite tweeters. so much of what you post is goddamn relatable or it otherwise makes me die and want to cover my face in my hands therE MIGHT BE AN IN BETWEEN AND I JUST HAVEN'T FOUND IT LMFAOSF HAHAH. but no i seriously think that you're one of my favorite people that i've gotten to meet this year? even though you fuckin roast me over hiyori sO OFTEN i still think you're a pretty cool person. i love reading every accomplishment that you have under your belt (yOU GET THAT DEGREE AND YOU MOVE OUT TO LA AND YOU HANG OUT WITH ME DAMMIT) and i honestly believe that you're going to change the world for the better. you have such a no nonsense attitude and ability to shut down ignorant people that i legit just want to snap my fingers and go "qUEEEENNNN". sometimes i whisper that at my phone anyway but sshhh. anyway i'm laughing because i really do think that we became fast friends and i'll be sure to let you know as soon as i get my hands on another otome game to play so we can talk about it. i hope that 2018 is smooth sailing for you and i can't wait to see how you're gonna conquer the world next!!
GORE » i still don't know if i've met anyone on the internet that's as kind as you. gore i don't think that i've heard you say a bad word about anyone, you're just full of sweetness and puns and i don't know how that combination came together in a human being buT HERE YOU ARE. i've known you for legitimately actual years now and i don't know if i can even begin to say how fortunate i feel to have a friend that i know will do anything to make me smile or laugh when i need someone. you're a constant presence in my life that i am endlessly grateful for and i sincerely don't know what i'd do without you. you're the kind of quiet but strong presence that inspires people to make emotes about you - to the point that some people don't have the cerealia emote saved anymore but they've still got the "gore why" one HAHA. WHAT KIND OF LEGEND.... but in all sincerity you're the kind of person that's so easy to love that i'm pretty sure i would have to immediately meet someone in the pit if they had any kind of problem with you whatsoever, but that will never fuckin happen because you are one of the greatest people i've ever met. and thank you again for another year with you at my side and i can only hope for even greater, better things for us in the future.
GREER » UGGHHHH THIS ONE IS GOING TO BE SO HARD TO WRIIIIIITE. GREER I LOVE YOU SO MUCH. I'M DYING LMFAOSDF;J. sometimes i think about how you're like "no as soon as i meet someone i treat them like we're best friends" and lET ME TELL YOU, FAM, I FEEL IT. i adore you so much. i want your happiness all the time. i love your dog. i love your talent and your skill and everything that you want to share with us on plurk because your craft is fuckin amazing and you deserve so MUCH GODDAMN PRAISE FOR IT. you are an amazing person. you are a phenomenal human being. you literally stepped up and tried to play therapist for me during some really dark and moody days in my life and i don't know what i'd do if you didn't - for all that i kept talking myself out of the shit the fact that you even cared enough to try to reason with me means the world. because i know that i get frustrating and there are days we don't see eye to eye but like. i wouldn't trade our friendship for literally anything. everything we've built in the course of a year is amazing and i can't even begin to say how much you mean to me. you're a dear friend and someone that i want to talk to everyday even if it's about the smallest things. thank you for being so willing to endure all my chatter LAUGHS. YOU ARE SO PATIENT. you are so patient and sweet and kind and so many, so so so so so so many wonderful things. and i can't wait to see you next year and get to know you even better this year like. yeah. i adore you so much. i love you soooo fuckin much fam and i'll see you in a few weeks blows a kiss
HANA » LMFOS;FJS SOMETIMES I THINK ABOUT HOW WHEN I FIRST MET YOU I WAS LIKE "WHY IS HANA THE SWEETEST, CUTEST PERSON ALIVE THAT MAKES ME FEEL LIKE I WAN TO SMILE ALL THE TIME" and it's still... so true.... oh my god hana i love you so much s;fjklsdf lMFAOSD HAHA I JUST BURST OUT INTO THE BIGGEST SMILE WHILE I WAS TYPING THIS. WHENEVER I THINK OF YOU I JUST THINK OF SWEET FLUFFY THINGS AND FLOWERS AND EVERYTHING THAT MAKES ME HAPPY. so i hope you know that you bring that kind of sweetness into the world and i'm so glad that i've gotten to meet you through rp. and also the fact that you came back to recolle really makes my heart soar because i'm so, so excited to be able to play with you again. your tags are so much fun to bounce off of and also just plotting and talking to you oocly is fun too. you're a sweetheart and a wonderful person and i'm so glad that you've found time for recolle again because the game is richer with you in it. thank you for everything that you bring to the game and to my life because i treasure every moment i get to spend with you. i hope that 2018 is good to you and brings you every sweet and wonderful experience that you deserve!!
JAE » WELL FOR ONE FINALLY I GOT TO MEET YOU AFTER ALL THESE YEARS OH MY GOD JAE. being able to spend hours with you at con even if we were just goofing off and learning how to JJ style in line is everything to me. i'm so happy to be able to call you a friend and talk to you after all these years - because we've really, really known each other a long time LMFAO. i can't even begin to explain the profound influence that you've had in my life, whether it's that time that i fell into the senbasa pit because of you and never really managed to find my way out or just when i throw myself at you every few months to say hi. you're someone that i think of when i consider the way that friendship is truly timeless, limitless, and i can say for a fact that i adore you so, so much. you're an amazing person who's doing wonderful things and so thoughtful to everyone that you know and i just. goodness gracious i love you jae, there's just no way around it. i love everything that you've brought to my life and i can't wait to know you for another 10 more years.
JAN » i don't think i'll ever get tired of waxing poetic about you because i love you so much jan LMFAOSDFJ; GOD. I ADORE YOU MORE THAN WORDS CAN EVEN BEGIN TO SAY. WHENEVER SOMEONE MENTIONS YOU TO ME I'M LIKE "FUCK!!! I LOVE JAN!!!!!" because i do i do i do, jan you've been a part of my life for so, so long. for so long that i can't even think about what i was doing before i knew you. you've grown with me over the years and sometimes i still think about when you called me a kouhai and i couldn't be prouder to be someone's kouhai. jan you're a wonderful person and i'm so glad that you've managed to find your joy in murdergames where everyone screams about you just as much as i do!!!! affectionately of course, cries, just with nothing but love. and then i'm so glad to share a game with you again because i always need jan tags in my inbox. when we got back to multithreading it really did feel like coming home, like it was something i've always needed in my life. i always need you in my life though, regardless of the actual context. thank you for all the years that we've spent together jan and i can't wait for even more. i love and treasure you so dearly and wish for endless fortune to bless you in 2018.
JELLE » WELL FOR ONE EVERY TIME THAT YOU REAPPEAR ON PLURK I FEEL LIKE IT'S CHRISTMAS ALL OVER AGAIN. jelle i love you so much and i still think it's absolutely ridiculous that i literally got to visit the netherlands just to see you oh my god. and then we spent a day together and i nearly cried because i was so happy about it as;dklfjasdf. you're a wonderful person and when i was looking at tenka threads the other day i was once again remembering shinpachi and your endless love for shinpachi. do you remember that photo that you took of you reaching out to touch his shirtless cg because i still think about that a lot. LMFAO I MISS RPING WITH YOU AND TALKING TO YOU BUT IN GENERAL I HOPE THAT YOU'RE DOING WELL. i also have been slowly descending into kpop hell and i'm like "is jelle still here, jelle help me" and i really need to get around to line messaging you to that effect. i love you so much and i hope that 2018 brings you wonder and joy and we get back in touch but until then you still have all my affection
JES » JES!!! THE ONE WHO FUCKIN KILLS IT AT ADULTING LMFAOSFJ;. TRULY ADULT LIFE GOALS. i'm not going to lie i love the fact that even though we don't share a game anymore we still manage to chat about anything that goes on during our days LMFAO. whether it's hair, makeup, or grad school i always love talking to you - and we'll absolutely get around to doing bleach one of these days dammit. what if i make that a 2018 new year's resolution jes, whaT IF I DID THAT i might do that. but no in general i absolutely adore you and i think that you're amazing and i think tha you're going to fUCKIN KILL IT IN YOUR ADVANCED STUDIES and i can't wait for you to share everything that you learn. we have to be polisci buddies through the end of course. i admire you so much and i think that the way that you grab life and slam into it with everything that you've got is absolutely amazing. you're doing great things and that makes me so happy to see always. all of your hard work is really paying off!! clutches chest. so i hope that 2018 continues to be ready for your badassery because i don't see it stopping here. i can't wait to see what you do with the world and hopefully we'll be able to get through our grad school adventures together!
KAMI » god kamilah you're so!!! goddamn cute!! LIKE LITERALLY I JUST LOOKED AT YOUR NAME AND I THOUGHT ABOUT WHEN YOU JUST SHOW UP AT MY DISCO TO ASSAULT ME WITH KACCHAKO ART OR WHEN YOU BUMP INTO ME MAKING SOME CUTE NOISE WHEN WE'RE SITTING NEXT TO EACH OTHER IN THE CAR AND YOU'RE SO!! CUTE!! A MENACE BUT SO FUCKIN CUTE!!! covers face. you literally spoil your friends rotten and honestly i love it whenever you get into something new because you really do throw your everything into it. like from legend of korra into yoi into ice skating into heroaca i'm literally losing my shit as i think about everything that earns your passion and how much you then put into it. it's wonderful to watch because it's so much fun to watch one of your friends really, really enjoy themselves with something. you're a wonderful friend and a sweet person and i love getting to hang out with you. you work so hard at everything and as someone who can't keep up with exercising for more than 2 weeks the level of dedication that you put into ice skating or getting stronger is amazing and i can't fuckin wait for you to end up on ninja warrior so we can all cheer for you on the sidelines LMFAO. i adore you endlessly and can't wait to see you next and i'm so glad that we've gotten to spend this year together - as i'm sure that we'll continue to spend more together alsooooo
KAYE » KAYE I LOVE YOU..... like for one i'm so excited that we get to be in a game together again? i love zero so much even though i know literally the absolute bare minimum about her canon LMFAO. how much you love her shows in your rping and even in your plurk memes and it's more than enough to hook me into the character, right along with your writing. i'm so glad that we get to play off each other again - our characters always have the most ridiculous dynamics and i die - but i also love the fact that we get to talk and chat as friends even when we're not in a game together. when friendships expand past rp it's really my favorite thing ever and i can say with certainty that i'm blessed to be able to share that with you. thank you for the years that we've gotten to spend together and i can't wait to see what you're able to accomplish in 2018. you've always been constantly growing and improving as a person and i'm sure the same will be true in 2018.
KC » YOU!!!!!!!! listen there's not a lot of people on this list that i can really manage to say left an impact not only on me but also on my ice gays lAUGHS. EVERYTHING THAT YOU GAVE ME WAS SHARED WITH THEM AND THEY APPRECIATED ALL OF IT. thank you so much and i'm so glad that i managed to meet you this year. i feel like our friendship was honest to god 3fast5furious and i wouldn't have it any other way. i adore you so much and i hope that you're doing well - or as well as you can be, depending on the circumstances. you're such an admirable, excellent, and caring person and also a talented and gifted writer and i'm so glad that 2017 managed to give you enough inspiration to enjoy writing again. that's a gift that really manages to outclass all others, i think. laughs. you've managed to make people laugh and cry and smile with the words that come from your head and i think that's only fitting - you're talented and i'm so glad that you're sharing that with the world. i miss you of course but i hope that you're doing well even more than that, and it would feel wrong for me to look back on this past year and not notice the influence that you had on my life. thank you for being a part of it and being there for me when i needed you and i hope that 2018 brings you every happiness that you deserve after giving so much to others.
KELSEY » for one i think that you're amazing. and i really don't know if i say this enough, but i think that you're smart and talented and hard working and you deserve every good thing in the entire universe. you are one of the players in recolle that really shaped my experience in the game because i think about how i got unreasonably attached to a ygo character and the meta surrounding his life, laughs. you are so thoughtful in everything that you do and i hope you know that even if i sometimes don't always remember to hit you up on disco or comment on your plurks, i endlessly encourage you to do the things that make you happy because that's more important to me than literally anything else laughs. i think that the narrative you've built is well-research and ambitious and fuckin amazing because i don't think i've ever seen anything like it. you're just so awesome that i literally suck at being able to say more about it laughs. overall though thank you for being my friend and giving me advice throughout the year when i hit a rough patch and always encouraging me when i don't know what to do. you're always sensible and helpful and i'm so, so fortunate to have been able to find you this year. i hope 2018 treats you well and i can't wait to be able to spend even more of it playing with you!
KIMMEH » you are such a goddamn sweetheart jfc. kimmeh i love you a lot and i don't always know what's going on in your life but i hope you know that i think you are a goddamn badass for dealing with literally everything that life has thrown at you and still being such a kind, loving, sweet person after dealing with all of it. like you are so full of love and life that i just don't know what to do with myself when faced with it all LMFAO. i love being able to plot with you and getting to know you this year like - i'm so glad that recolle managed to introduce you into my life because i feel like a much happier person for it. also you have an amazing set of commission recs LMFAO HAHAHA i'm 98% sure you're the reason why i fell for the commission bug again smh!! you're a fantastic person and so sweet and i love the families that you create in recolle seemingly right out of nothing because it's like. actual magic LMFAO. thank you for being a wonderful friend to me this year and bringing me so many reasons to laugh and smile. i can't wait to see what 2018 has in store and i hope that it's really kind to you or else i'll have to beat it into submission.
KIT » I'VE ALREADY TOLD YOU IN THE PAST HOW COOL I THINK YOU ARE BUT IDK SOMETIMES I JUST FEEL LIKE REPEATING IT. i maintain that of the people that i've met in recolle i think that your writing in particular is absolutely phenomenal and #goals. i'm so glad that i've gotten to meet you this year because i've gotten to stalk all your threads and develop cr with you and also talk to you in general. i think your willingness to plot with people and come up with ideas on the fly to develop cr is amazing and part of also what makes you such a welcoming person in the game. everyone wants cr with you and tbh i think that's only fair and right?? also the fact that you were willing to set up this murdergame for everyone to have fun with over the holidays is also fantastic and i can say just from how much teej talks to me about it that it's clearly an excellent and entertaining ride. you're wonderful at creating spaces where people feel at home and relaxed enough for all sorts of off the cuff fun. also as a person you're amazing and talented and i've told you all those things before, laughs. thank you for being a part of my life this year and i can't wait to see what 2018 has in store for us also. i hope that it brings you all sorts of hilarity and fun.
KOSY » BAE!!!!!!!!! bae i love you so goddamn much LMFAOSDF;J. we don't talk as often as we used to anymore but that's okay and i hope you know that i'm constantly wishing for your happiness. i hope you know that i still think of you every time i see something with leo or kanata and you will always be my leader and my ryusei blue in my heart. you're endlessly talented and beautiful and smart and sweet and kind and i honestly i would absolutely ruin a thesaurus trying to think of every word to describe you. you are one of my favorite people on this goddamn planet and every time i got to talk to you again was enough to brighten up my mood for like days. we've been friends for years and i treasure you so goddamn much and i hope you know that. you mean the world to me and i hope that 2017 brought you actual metric shittons of happiness because that's what you deserved. and i hope 2018 will bring you even more wonderful things and also the ryusei vs knights event that we've been waiting for because we all have to suffer in enstars hell a little bit LMFAO
LISA » so i'm like waiting for the day that someone else brings up your name to me as an artist so i can be like "AH YES LISA, THAT ICON, TELL ME FRIEND HAVE YOU EVER HEARD OF ARM TOTS" and i'm only half kidding;lskdjf. i think that you're kind of a legend?? i don't know if i've met anyone else in rpland who's so willing and excited to make their character fail or flail or fall flat on their face repeatedly but let me tell you friend everything that you're doing to bucky barnes is fucking amazing. i still think of when i was in ty and pip's apartment in august and you posted that art of bucky suplexing a cow and the entire apartment burst out into laughter - and i still think that it's amazing that you can create such beautiful things (both art and situations) that will make an entire room fill with warmth. you have so much talent and skill and i hope you get to see all the results that you're looking for every time you share your talent and creativity with the world. i'm so, so, so glad that i've gotten to know you this year and you've indulged all my questions about your passion and your work because i think you're just one of the coolest people i've gotten to meet.
LUCY » god lucy you're absolutely ridiculous LMFAO. EVERY TIME I THINK OF PEOPLE IN RPLAND WHO I AM AMAZED BY ALL THE GODDAMN TIME YOU'RE ONE OF THE FIRST NAMES TO POP UP ALWAYS. for one you've created an amazing game with ty and megs and i can't even begin to thank you for that. like thanks to you three i've added so many names to this list of people that i've gotten to know - including yours now that we're no longer people whose paths never directly crossed in rp LMFAO. it's been so much fun to build cr with you and plot ridiculous things with you and i will forever love how you're just up for any random adventure in all your tags. you bridge cr with so many people and welcome people to your game and i'm so glad that i've gotten to know you over this past year. you're so much fun to talk idols with and hopefully in the coming year i'll be able to actually play family cr with you i'm dying. but thank you for letting me be a part of your life, lucy. you're one of the most sincere, hard-working, dedicated, and fantastic people that i've ever gotten to meet and i can't thank you enough for everything that you do. thank you and here's to another year of getting to know each other even better!!
MARIE » LMFAO JESUS CHRIST how did i... not know you... more than a few months ago. i tend to go 3fast5furious with my friendships but honestly Marie I think that you're one of the coolest people that I've gotten to meet in 2017. for one just based on your rl plurks you do amazing work and i admire you for that alone. you are such a strong, capable person even though i know that a lot of rl is often spent screaming going "whAT AM I DOING" i honestly think that you're great. and even when rl gets hard you always manage to work past it and that's more important than anything else. then in the rp-sphere thanks for going along with all of my terribad horrendous ideas and then sometimes pouring gasoline on them to make the trashfire burn all the brighter. that is truly all we need this christmas season LMFAO. but no in all seriousness - thank you for being so much fun to play off of and plot with. thank you for being so kind and willing to help when i'm floundering so badly. thank you for generally being a joy and i can't wait to build our cr even more this coming year. i'm so glad that i've met you and i hope that you never doubt for a second the light that you bring to other people because i sincerely find you dazzling.
MIRA » UM THERE SHE IS???? THE SUPERSTAR??? LMFAO MIRA YOU'RE SO COOL. like i mean with all your vocal training and whatnot i think you're so phenomenal? you do such intense shows? you kill your auditions and in general you're just? a star? you're such a star. since i didn't get to see you at fanime this past year i hope you know that i'm extra determined to find a way to see you this 2018. in general i want to say that i adore you and i appreciate you so much as a friend. you handle me when i'm at my most fangirly or at my absolute saltiest and you deal with it with so much grace LMFAO. you're a sweetheart without compare and the love that you have for people and writing and your characters is amazing. i love every au that we get to build and all the cr dynamics that we get to try out because you're so willing to adventure with absolutely anything and everything. you're someone that i treasure dearly and am so glad that i get to have you in my life. thank you for everything and here's to another spectacular year together.
NAT » sometimes i look back on the night that we met and i was like "um wow this girl is so pretty?? and so funny??? and nice??? how does one person manage to have it all" LMFAO HAHA AND I REALLY. HAVEN'T CHANGED MY MIND ALL THAT MUCH. nat you're an amazing human being and i adore you. you make me smile and laugh every time that we get to see each other and i'm glad that we've gotten to know each other better over this year anD I'M SOOO EXCITEEEDDD THAT SINCE YOU MOVED I'LL GET TO SEE YOU MORE AND MORE. my heart is so full what the fuck. thanks for being stuck in the enstars hellpit with me that absorbs us in conversation for like an hour at a time while pip and ty tune us out and do something else LMFAO HAHAHA. i'm so glad for it and i absolutely can't say enough how happy i am that you're in my life. i feel like i can talk to you about anything and everything and you're such a good friend. you're kind and warm and open-hearted and smart and hard-working and i can sing your praises until my fingers fall off. i'm lucky to have you in my life and can't say that enough. i'm not sure how to finish this so i'll just wrap it up by saying i hope you got a lot of cheese for christmas.
PIP » you know i have no idea why because it was such a one off mention but i really do feel the need to call you Pip Pip Style all the time even though i know you hate me for it LMFAOAS;DFJK GOD. OKAY WHERE DO I.... WHERE DO I EVEN BEGIN ON THIS. alright so you know how much i love my ice gays and how much i talk about them and being able to find a home within like - people. a group of people. and i just.... i just love that you did that. i love that you opened up your entire home for that. i love that you insist to people "um you live here????" until they, apparently like nat, jUST ACTUALLY DO. THEY REALLY DO JUST LIVE THERE. and i think that says so much about you big heart. and your openness to people from all walks of life because you'll show that kind of care and love for your friends without reserve. and pip the world needs more people like you. they desperately need people who are willing to show that kindness and love for people around them and i'm just so happy and blessed that i get to know that you even exist - that people like you exist. you have so much strength and so much sweetness and i adore you without end. i'd do anything for you and i hope you know that. you make me smile with all your love live screaming and when you do that thing where you laugh-scream "GODDAMMIT" when someone says something ludicrous in your presence which is often. thanks for helping build up so many of my fondest memories this year and here's to a glorious 2018.
PIXI » OH PIXI WHAT WOULD I DO WITHOUT YOU - i'd be left floundering not sure what happens in the rest of rengoku ni warau probably lmfaosdf;j. OUR FRIENDSHIP GOES BEYOND THAT, OF COURSE, I TREASURE YOU DEARLY I ADMIRE THE WORK YOU DO CONSTANTLY I THINK THAT YOUR KENDO PRACTICE IS SO FREAKING COOL!!!!! all of that but like. i have to say that i'm floored constantly by something that you were so willing and ready to do. like you said that it was just like more japanese practice to you and you set your own schedule and everything but i can't even begin to express how grateful and astonished and touched i am that you gave me something that i was waiting years for without even blinking. you have such an open heart and an unbelievable amount of sweetness and you're so willing to share everything you have to give with people. i'm amazed by you and am so glad that i get to call you a friend. thank you. you're a gift and i can't wait to spend 2018 getting to know you even better even as you slow roast me over a fire because of my grandpa
RAY » sometimes i think about how you don't drink coffee or take morning showers and i continue to think "my god the zombie apocalypse is going to come and ray is going to be stronger than us all" lMFAOSDF;J HAHAH. um in all seriousness i'm so glad that i got to meet you this year. i think that you're a stellar human being with infectious energy and the ability to make even the grouchiest person smile. you're so willing to chat with anyone about anything which i love to no end because holy fuck i love chatter LMFAO. you're fun to play off of in games and the fact that you picked up uraraka the actual best girl maKES SO MUCH SENSE TO ME. THAT JUST MAKES!! TOO MUCH SENSE!!!! RAY IS SO STRONG AND URARAKA IS SO STRONG!!! so i hope you know that's exactly what i think of you. it's been great getting to know you this year and i hope that we only grow closer in the new year!!
SIB » sib you're so cool.... al;skdjfasdf LMFAOASD;FJ SOMETIMES I THINK ABOUT WHEN YOU WERE LIKE "DANA'S SO NORMAL FOR AN RPER" BUT REALTALK I DON'T CARE MUCH ABOUT BEING NORMAL WHEN I THINK YOU'RE SO AWESOME HAHA. like i love you, i love your spider, i love all of your animal companions really, i lOVE that you're getting to move forward with your life and do even more fantastic things that i can only try to wrap my mind around. like you are seriously so capable and so kind and so talented - like you translate and you do art and you are so freakin smart??? sib you're an awesome person and i hope that you don't doubt that for even a second in 2018 because i think that's pretty blasphemous LMFAO. ugh i'm the worst at psls but i hope you know that i am excited to be able to tag with you more soon because i miss rping with you dearly, but i'm glad that even outside of that i get to follow along with your life adventures on plurk and i always, always, always hope that you're doing well. i hope that 2018 is kind to you and brings you many wonderful things
SHAY » shay i'm so glad that i've gotten to meet you through recolle?? like for one i still think that peach phone is fuckin iconic and also i just opened your plurk today where farrah was so sure you were francy and i died i super died UGH SO MANY HILARIOUS THINGS JUST. HAPPEN AROUND YOU AND IT'S AMAZING. your sense of humor is fuckin perfect also and tagging with you is always a delight. in general i'm so glad that i've gotten to meet you and consider you to be someone in recolle that i really, really, really need to tag even more because i enjoy threading with you that much. you are a wonderful person and so willing to plot with people and do all sorts of crazy shit with your characters as one would expect from their canons laughs. so i absolutely just wanted to leave a note with how much i appreciate you and how i can't wait to get thread with you even more in the coming year.
TEEJ » LMFAO TEEJ MY DAYS AREN'T COMPLETE IF I DON'T GET TO TALK TO YOU. god i could say so much and i cold go on forever - but it really feels like i got to know you this year. i'm so glad that you decided to app into recolle with me and then even agreed to all sorts of pre-game cr with me. you're one of the main reasons why i was convinced into apping baren in the first place and after all the things that i've gotten to do with him, you know that i appreciate that to no end. you've supported me through so many difficult times this year too and i sincerely don't know what i would've done without you. you're so important to me and i'm so grateful that i get to have you as a friend. it's honestly an honor and i'm grateful every single day that i don't have to worry about hitting you up with random thoughts because you'll just pick up whatever i put down no problem. you're so dear to me and i love you even though you made me scream through all of bungou stray dogs i suppose i forgive you for that. but in all sincerity i appreciate you more than i have actual words for and all i can say is that i hope that 2018 brings us both excellent adventures and a lot of fun. you work so hard and i hope that you get a lot of relaxation time too. points at eyes points at you sakuracon is going to be so much fun and i can't wait to see you!
TSUBO » sometimes i think about the fact that we haven't threaded in about a thousand years and also the fact that we only had maybe one thread together when we were in the same game and sometimes that'd be enough for me to only end up crossing paths with someone but like - tsubo you're such a wonderful person that i can sincerely call you a friend that i made not though rp but more through just random conversations on plurk. you are so sweet and encouraging for every single person on your plurk list like - between you and hana i don't know if i've ever met a more sweet and genuine and sincere pair of people on plurk. being able to know you is such a treat and a delight like. you leave such a positive influence on every single person that you know and i can't even begin to mention how important i think it is for everyone to have at least one friend like you but like, you're so rare that not everyone gets to? i'm so lucky that i get to. you're a joy and i adore every single thing about you. thank you for being my friend in 2018 and i can't wait to keep walking forward in life with you because i can't ever imagine letting you go?
TY » LMAO FUCK where do i... even begin here..... ty, sometimes i forget that i haven't known you all my life. like i've known some people on plurk for like a decade and sometimes i sincerely forget that you are not one of those people. our friendship is still so fresh and short but also like - i trust you so much. with everything. i love you so much, also with everything that i have. you're such a kind, open, sweet, thoughtful, intelligent, and sensible person that i really don't know how you handle everything in your life with as much grace as you do aND I'M SURE THAT YOU'LL BE LIKE "LMAO GRACE???" OR SOMETHING LIKE THAT but no like. i think that you're absolutely amazing at everything you touch. you are one of the most hard-working people i know. you're driven and you give so much into everything that you do. along with lucy and megs you literally gave me a home game that let me meet so many new people this year and i can't imagine that i would've done without it. on top of that you also are part of the LA squad that i consider my extended family at this point. thank you for inviting me to spend time with you and meet all these people and just. bringing so much warmth into my life. you are someone that i will always hold dear in my heart and i can't wait to spend another year with you with all sorts of new adventures.
YANA » YANA YOU ARE SO SMART AND SO COOL AND LITERALLY EVERYTHING YOU TOUCH IS BEAUTIFUL. or hilarious. really both is good i think and that balance is vitally important LMFAO. no i just think that like - whether it's the translations that you offer up for commission or the graphics that you make or the way that you're willing to just talk to anyone on your plurk that i just sincerely admire and adore you so much. we haven't shared a game in a while but i feel like that doesn't even matter because i just enjoy talking to you. i like opening your plurks to see how your life is going (here's hoping your parents find their chill in 2018 goddamn) and honestly i still don't have a doubt in my mind that you'll be able to do great things with your life. you're absurdly talented at plenty of things and i just hope that the situations that are thrown at you will like y'know. chill out. because you deserve a break considering all the hard work that you put into things. but i hope you know that regardless of all that, i think that you're skilled and awesome and fantastic and truly believe that everything will work out for you. i'm always here if you want to vent or talk also but in general i just wish for fun, excellent, and most importantly relaxing things to come your way
YAYWON » LMFAO FUCK yaywon you're.. so great... i'm laughing because i always laugh when i talk to you? like literally even just typing this made the biggest smile crack on my face and i'm just honestly sincerely really happy that like. even after all these years and the fact that i actually don't remember the last time we shared a game - we're still friends. whether it's from screaming about akayona (um soo-won/lili otp) or now about rengoku ni warau or kpop (gOD WHY AM I BACK HERE), we can seriously just talk about anything. you're someone that's just really easy to talk to and have fun with and - i was about to type "it feels like we've been friends for ages" but then i realized that might be because we've actually been friends for ages LMFAO HAHA. i've known you for so long and i've adored you for so long and now all i want in 2018 is to be able to get more baren and okuni threads with you because i'll be real, i'm nervous a lot about having someone play twins with me but you're someone that i trust 100%. even more than that if possible. but i hope that 2018 treats you kindly and brings you joy and laughter like how you bring it to the rest of the world
YUFF » I'LL BE HONEST WHEN I THINK OF PROMINENT PLAYERS IN RECOLLE, I THINK OF YOU OFTEN. and i think about how lucky i am to have gotten to know you over this year. i'm dyin because i think about how much i miss threading with you (and i will fix that in 2018 god help me) but i wouldn't have felt right if i didn't leave you a note about how sincerely fantastic i think you are and how much you bring to the game. for one you are a goddamn coding wiZARD and your dedication to creating tools to help the entire goddamn game is an act of generosity without compare. i tell people about how i literally had to code my AC over the course of 4 days the first time around and i'm like "plEASE USE YUFF'S CODE, PLEASE LOVE YOURSELF" LMFAO. but more than that i want to say that being able to plot with you and just chat with you in people's plurks is a gift - you're among the most welcoming players in the entire game and i think the entire game is warmer with you in it. and i just wanted to say those things when i otherwise wouldn't have gotten a chance to and wish you a warm and happy new year that brings you every rp dream that you want - and every rl dream too LAUGHS. you're such a nice and devoted person, you deserve every good thing that this world gives you.
YUUL » WAILS. YUUUUUL. I CAN'T BELIEVE I MET YOU OFFICIALLY THIS YEAR EVEN THOUGH WE'VE LIVED IN THE SAME TOWN FOR 203948324 YEARS LMFAODF;J. i'm dying. no i hope that this fanime we get to hang out some more!! you're such a fun person and - i'll be honest sometimes i think back to that one day maybe like. 3? 4? years ago where i felt down about something and you proceeded to send me the sweetest, most uplifting series of snapchat doodles and i just about died. we don't get to talk a lot but i hope you know that i adore you endlessly and i think of you whenever i think about k-pop and overwatch LAUGHS. i hope that this holiday season brought you as much warmth as the south bay can offer and i can't wait to get a chance to hang out with you again sometime soon. you're an awesome, hilarious person and i love whenever i get to talk to you. that's the sort of healing and encouraging aura that you bring into people's lives. may 2018 bring you and your dog so much happiness (please tell him i love him so much he's my fav snapchat star)
EVERYONE » 2017 was the year that I met a lot of you or that I got to know some of you better or in some cases, where some people and I drifted apart - but I do want to say with absolute certainty that I appreciate every single person on my plurk list that bothered to even speak a word to me. Thank you for being able to spare me some of your time and kindness. I never once doubt that I am absurdly loved and absurdly lucky to have so many people in my life who are willing to give me that time of day. You have my gratitude and affection and I hope that 2018 brings you both happiness and peace.
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It's easy to get swept by the tides of expectations and societal pressure, and difficult to accept both your flaws and the love of others faced against them. Our assessment of ourselves is always going to be harsher than how other people perceive us, and that's okay. It's those same people who give us love when we have none for ourselves—that's what I think, at least.
I'm very fortunate to have you as a friend and as an inspiration, and I value you for all that you are. Thanks for sticking around all these years, Dana.